For the win

2010-10-30T06:10:00.000-07:00

i once thought about this - what's the biggest capacity of a human's brainpower?

we usually think about the decisions we make, the path we take, the standpoint we hold being the best like no other. we want to have things our way, because we always think that we are right.

but sad to say, there's always a limit to the things on earth.

just when we think that we've possessed the wisdom and knowledge which others do not, we've unconsciously fallen into the sinful trap, tricked into thinking that we're the best.
foolish is the one who thinks that he's the wisest amongst all his friends.
it's not that we're clever in the way we handle things. we just have too much pride in us to block out others' proposition.
in this era, we're simply too accustomed to the worldly approach of doing things. at the end of the day, things get so messed up.

we're all self-centred creatures. in all the things which we do, we do it for ourselves. but there are far too many things which are beyond our understanding.

maybe..and i'm only saying, maybe. our liability to err will lessen when we stop relying on our flesh and body. the truth is, we're all flawed. not faulty, but we just lack of this substance that makes us perfect.

2010-09-17T22:06:00.000-07:00

I got a direction now. But the road ahead of me seems obstructed.
I know where I should head to now. But I'm stuck.

I'm always stuck.

And I just realised, it actually feels worse when your tears just won't drop.

2010-08-29T09:53:00.000-07:00

I need You. That's all I need, for now.

Long time no blog!

2010-08-04T06:36:00.000-07:00

It's been long since I last blogged! Tahaha. (:

Is today a good day? Or a bad one? Hmm, I'm not too sure.
In fact, I'm feeling a bit lost right naoo. Should I feel happy, or sad?
I guess feelings inside me are a bit mixed up.

Today's the day. My grandma finally left home for Aunt's.
Well, after 30 over years, my parents finally did it.
I guess it's the right thing, and it's absolutely something to be happy about.
After all, this ugly mess had inflicted enough pain to us, especially my parents.
Apparently, we kinda 'washed our dirty linen' in public as well.
Yeah, really, it's ugly enough.
The tears and perspiration, screaming and yelling at each other at the top of our lungs.

It's enough.
She had hurt us through and through.
It's time...

for her to leave.

Whether or not she's coming back, that depends on my parents.
Even though this had all along been something I really wanted,
I still couldn't resist thinking to myself,
'Is this the right thing to do?'
No matter how overboard she'd gone, she's still my grandma,
someone whom I used to love dearly.
Even till now, I do admit. I still love her.
But I never dreamt that she'd have turned to become like this soon after she came to stay with us.
It's like a nightmare that I'm dying to wake up from.
She showed her true colours and this definitely frightened me, that I just have to admit that the awesome impression I had of her was utterly ruined.

Ayee. Well, it's part of God's will anyway.
I can't wait to see what is going to happen. What does he have in store for us? :)
Heh heh.

UT 2 Results are out. All 4 modules except Organizational Behavior. (As usual)

Mathematics: A
Comm Prac: B+
Science: C+ (@)^&!)&)
Cognitive: A

I mustmustmust do well for UT 3. Results so far (incl. Daily grade) are quite alright.
I must be contented! ^^ Heh heh! :D

Time flies, it's week 14 already.
Truthfully, I'm dreading YOG Holidays.
Cause deep down in my heart,
I don't wanna separate from you guys.

You are so dear to me, W46C! <3
Awesome class. Awesome awesome just so awesome! :) Hahaha!

Happy Birthday Tingyuan (PART 2)

2010-07-10T08:32:00.000-07:00

So I'm finally home! :D

Yeahh, went out since afternoon to celebrate Ty's birthday! :) Heehee!
The original plan was to meet at 1pm at Somerset...
But guess what: Shijie overslept, Tingyuan still putting on make-up at home, Sherlyn & I were webcamming at 12:30p.m.
HAHA, we had wanted to meet at 12:30p.m. at AMK somemoree!!
Funny siaaa, in the end we met at like 1:30+ at AMK! hahaah!! Siao lahh, when you go out with girls.. ITS LIKE THIS! :DD Boys, get used to it! xD

Before I went out, I was actually contemplating with the idea of putting bangs...
Cause today's hair quite curly, ayeee BAD HAIR DAY la! ):
"Bangs" or "Side"? "Bangs" or "Side"? =/
So I just video called SHERLYN.. to ask for her opinion! hahaha!
She said bangs.. So i put as bangs.
Butbut I thought of what baby said to me!): He said bangs make me look dorky with hair let down. -.-
So me didn't put bangs in the end lahhhh!! ):

Hehehh, met up with the gals <3 We went to Somerset. To eat. I ate lotsa fries! :D
HAHA, I think Ty forgot abt her fries or smth.. so Sherlyn & I just kept eating it! :)
Oh yaa, I ate a lot of fried food todayy.. >.< Even though I was running a fever this morning! D:
My soree throat especiallyyy!! hahaha! but I'm not scared, cause God will heal me! :) AMEN!
Have the faith of a mustard seed people! :D

Yeshh, we went to FLB (?) fleaaa!! SUPER CROWDED SIAAA!! hahaha will get squeezed like siao oneee!
It was damn packed luhh. Once you go in, THAT'S IT. You're gonna take at least half an hour to get out. hahaha! Partly cause there are many naise things to look at laaa. :)
I saw many people with weird/cool/crazy/unusual/awesome sense of fashion!! HAHA, got one girl looks like a bull can, many weird weird piercings and accessories! =/

Yuppp, after that went to some shopping centreee!! I don't know what it's called, SCAPE? O.O
hahaha!! Saw a nong nong queue of fans waiting for SHOW LUO! His new outlet of 'Stage' is finally opened!!! :D Heh, I don't really care though. :)

We went to buy yoghurt from RedMangooo!! IT'S JUST SO YUMMYYYY!!:P hahah! I shared with Sherlyn that Yoghurt Muesli. Omg at first I couldn't quite pronounce it.. And went like 'urm, yoghurt...urm, muuus..muse..li. Ayee, this one lah' -points at menu. HAHA, that girl wanted to help me pronounce it. -.- Yup, its awesome! GO TRY IT! :) Value for money tooo!!

Okkkayyyyee, went to cineleisure next. hahaha! Naisee! Oh yaa, we took neoprints tooo!! :D Damn long never take neoprints already.. Feel so old! ): hahaha! super fun mann, we just kept adding lotsa weird decorations due to time constraint! :D Naiseee!! ;)

Went to find baby after that. Finallyfinally I got to see him!!! After so long ): Ayee, the past week... Didn't go that smoothly. He was soso busy.. both of us got quite tied down by schwork, esp him!!): So after THAT DAY, we did not really sort things out well. Then for the past week, never sorted things out=more misunderstandings. Things went awry!! D: But it's perfectly okayye nao!! :D

Thank God, really!!! God, You know why everything happens this way, You have Your great plans for us!! :D Just have to believe that no matter what happens, it happened for a good cause. It happened because God has much greater things in store for us!! :D We just need the FAITH to believe and the PATIENCE to wait!! :) Most imptly, we need to LOVE our God and our neighbours! I don't want to simply confess this with my mouth.. I want to believe it with my HEART as well!! :) Heehee!

I'm really happy, Lord. I just realised this.
I don't have to feel afraid, or lonely anymore. I've long put You in a special position in my heart.

Happy Birthday Tingyuan! (PART 1)

2010-07-09T20:36:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday TanTingYuannnnn! :)

Aww, you're 17 already! hahaha It's time for you to grow up mann, stop being so silly :)
And I'm hoping for 'Coke' to make your day alright? :D He will!! hahaha!
We'll make your dayyyy too! It's gonna be an awesome day today when you're out with us,
and I promise you're gonna love this day - one of the BEST birthdays ever, yeah? ;)
So i'll post more about my meetup with my lovelies tonight or tmrw! :DD

Okayye, so I screwed up my Science UT yesterdayy. =/
Yes, I completed the whole paper, but no, I was not confident of my answers at all.
I think the thing that stresses you the most is when you're highly dependent on your UT grades, not cause you're doing badly for your daily grades, but exactly the opposite. (I'm talking abt Sci)
To some, it could be that they are dependent on UT grades to pull up their undesirable daily grades.
Yeah but to me, the fact that I worked quite hard to attain what I've gotten today, I really don't want my efforts to go down the drain.

I know God does not want me to solely depend on my effort, flesh and body.
Wanna put my heart and soul into worship, Bibly study and prayers too.
I guess everything went great in church yesterday. :)
Thank God for Rev. Kang. Thank God I'm in a great church. Thank God for my family, especially my parents. Thank God for my church friends. ;)
I'm not saying this because I only love them.. I love many more people. But I'm thanking God for everything that's related to church in this post. That's cause Rev. Kang preached about being a good church, and the purpose of a church yesterday.

It was great, and I've come to realise
how blessed I am to be chosen.

:)

2nd!

2010-07-03T23:30:00.000-07:00

Hello people! It's Sundayyyy todayyyee!! :D

hahaha, I don't know why I just feel like blogging.

Even though I've exam tmrwww!! =/

I don't feel like studying leah. I studied quite a bit alreadyyy!! (er scanned through, heh!)

NETHERLANDS OWNED BRAZIL ON 2JULY'10!!! :D

Fabulous 2-1! :)

hahahah 'even though im not a I TOLD YOU SO person',

I did tell you netherlands will win!! :)

Sounds familiar??

Yeapsss, it's from Knight and Day!! :D

KNIGHT AND DAY WAS COOL AND FUNNAYYEE!!

Went to watch this with boyf yesterdayy.

Heh, although we said we couldn't make it for tmrw..

in the end we still meet! :D

Causecause it's a special day yesterdayyy! :)

Hehheh!!

We were at Compass Point..

and we saw RAYMOND LAM!!!

He's hot lahhhh, I'm not crazy over him..

but he's really good looking!! :D

hahaha! and guess what he was wearing?!

Berms + high cut shoes,

exactly the same style as Kx!

I kept saying Kx wore till damn weird.. but when Raymond Lam wore it,

like quite nice arh! hahaha!

Maybe different people that's why....? HAHA!

Went to church today, everything went GREAAAATT!! :D

I shall say, I'm not that affected anymore by it. ;)

Initially, I thought I couldn't do it.

But God, You showed me the way,

You rescued me and saved me!!!

You showed me things in a different way,

and I'm just soso grateful to You!!!

Perhaps You have Your reasons for it...

so I shall wait. :)

Great sermon preached today!

Today Rev Kang preached about being a 'two-timer'..

Not that love affair you're think about!

It's being worldly and loving God at the same time...

All I can say is, we need to repent about it.

It's not gonna be easy, but we need a breakthrough.

Youth getting smaller and smaller.

Let's pray about it.

Everything happens for a reason.

What's His plan for us?

What to do next?

Pray about it.

On a random note,

I CUT MY HAIRRRRRRRRR!!!!

NO MORE BANGS!!!!! HAHAHAHA!!

It's quite funny leah.

But hey, if you are gonna laugh at my hair,

I laugh with you kayye!!! :D

Gotta go study! OR sleep!

Change

2010-07-02T18:56:00.000-07:00

I need You. But could You show me, is it really true about all that she's said?

=/ It's my fault again.

The insatiability in me;

2010-07-01T00:41:00.001-07:00

When you try too hard at times, result may just backfire.

Take a step back and it's never too late to appreciate the things and people around you.

But there's something I must do. I must stop asking for more, more and more.

I must be contented with all that I have,

because I am blessed to have all these wonderful people in my life.

And I'm so glad.

~.~.~.~

Awesomee!!^^
Class just ended, and faci said we're finally doing Biology next week!:) Yayyyee!! :D
hahaha, woah owhh, class ended late today, AGAIN. -.-
Thank God it's Science and Mr Greg's soo naisee to not go through 6P with us! hahah yayye!!

Today's been okok only.. Steph and Leon nvr come. Ayeee!
There's this intolerable feeling in my ears todayy. Very pain siol!
Like the ear pressure you experience whenever you board a plane. Yeah, that feeling!
It sucks siaaa. :/ It's been going on since yesterday nightyy!

Oh yeahh, I went to find darling yesterday, AGAIN! hehheh, me so naisee. :)
Nab told me bout this feeder bus thingy which takes only about 30 mins to reach TP.
I got soo excited, so I decided to try it out tooo!!
And guess what, 40 mins passed and I was still stuck in the bus, on the highway somemoreee!!-.-
hehheh, but I didn't regret going over! x) I cant see him till next weeek. :(

On a high note,
Saturday's St Nick's Sports Dayyyy! :D Heehee, I get to see my friends!
I MISS THEM SO MUCH! Especially Jolenee, omg, I haven't seen her for SO long! :D
And I wonder who will I get to see on that day! Weehee!! :)

Saturday's a special day too! :) But tooo bad, we can't make it.
Heh, it's okayye. I'm happy anywayy.
:)

Alrighty,
I'm going to do my project with team members nao!! :)
Wahh, I'm quite tired already. School's over but I'm stuck with SHAFI'E.
Hahaha!

He.heard.me,again.

2010-06-24T09:43:00.000-07:00

"All too often people allow their emotions and their self-centered ways to control their behavior. The marriage relationship offers both partners the education of love, by way of opportunity. It’s an opportunity to love in otherness, to take the focus off of oneself, and to focus on the other. So the next time that all your needs are not being met, first appreciate the opportunity you have, and then make the most of it."

Taken from;

http://www.flowinglove.com/relationships/index.php/topics-issues/121/his-her-needs-met/

Thank you Lord, You answered me, in another way.
Another way which removes the burden & worry I have.
Another way which makes me feel calmed.
Another way which absolutely woke me up.
Another way which made me smile, almost instantly.

It is time for us to promise each other, once again. :)

When you are here again, let's pray hard that I will still stay.

2010-06-20T22:40:00.000-07:00

It feels crazy at times, trying to figure this out.

I may not feel that way, but it seems a bit messed up. For one thing, I really HATE to follow my heart sometimes. It is always telling me to do things that are wayyy absurd, and most of the time, against my principles. The incoherent feelings in me are getting too baffling that I cannot wait to be rid of it.

Sometimes it's just awesome to be a naive and ignorant toddler. You get and you forget.

Things go awry when you least expect it;

2010-06-11T11:42:00.001-07:00

So I was right. It finally happened.

I was really upset, wondering what I had done wrong, to deserve this from God.
Before the baptism thing, I thought it was going to be the last time I'm crying over something which I'm going to miss out for church. (Warfare, again.)
But this time round... I cried again. Because you can't come with me for this long awaited church ministry.
I was mad when I heard you breaking the news to me.
My heart literally sank and I could not even express the disappointment I had, toward you.

Of course, I could not hold it any longer. I burst into tears right after I hung up on you.
Only because I could not wait to attend this important event with you.
Trust me, I was really glad and proud that you were coming along.
I expected myself to have lotsa fun, even though I'd be really exhausted and all.. Since I have school & church at the same time. But..

poooft.
Expectations do lead to disappointments at times. And yeah, it happened again.

I'm truly sorry my dear. Anger got the better of me, which is really silly of me to have flared up.
I never realised that while I was being angry that you sounded as if you could not care less,
the situation did not seem any optimistic to you either.

I wish I knew what went wrong earlier.
I wish I could be there for you when you needed me the most.
I wish I was more expressive in my own feelings, so you would really know what I want you to know.

Whatever it is,
I may not know how to comfort you right now,
But I want you to know that
'I won't be there for you, but I will be here with you',
no matter what happens.

Because I love you so.

:'(

2010-06-10T05:39:00.000-07:00

I want to be loved forever;

But I seem to be holding on to something which is only temporary.

My heart tells me this I should never do. So now.. what?

And, I really do not like lies. Don't ever lie to me. I hate it when people lie to me.

2010-06-08T09:56:00.000-07:00

HELLOOOOOO!! Okayye, this is weird.. I'm blogging AGAIN. In a dead blog somemore-.-
(I'm forced to, anyway)

-Random; Me stomach hurtssss!! ):

Today was a happy day!!:) Well, not so...after I heard that you're not okayye, but still! >.<
At least you're sleeping naoo, having a great night's sleep :D

I'm very tired. Mentally & physically.
Mentally I won't say why, because this is for myself.
But physically... yeah, really super exhausted ):
hahaha but me fine fine!! :D

Sososo, why am I tired?? o.O hehhehh, that's cause.. awesome me exercised a lotttt yesterday!!
Besides that, I went out today.. and everything ended at like 1am or so!! :)
In short, I'm suffering from body aches and i'm freeeaaaking tireddd!!
But I enjoyed myself, to the maxi max!! :D

Heehee! Even though I was a wee bit upset, I am still okayye.
I love catching up with my dearest friends, really, I do!! :D They're just precious to me.

Church today was absolutely..great. No, I should say, it's indescribable. :)
I love my God!!!! :)

Preparing my heart for Zoe Ministry... prayers, worship, healing, etc WAIT FOR MEEEE!!! :D
Ohhh, my baby's coming too!! :D Yayyee!! ^^

17th Birthday was awesomee ttm! (:

2010-05-25T20:32:00.000-07:00

I loveee this year's birthday celebrations!! ^^
Thank You for this wonderful day, You have indeed showed me something. :)

I'm soso feeling soso happpyyy! :D
On Monday nighttt, my sister & bro wanted to bring me out to choose a present.
But I had nothing in mind, so I just told them i'll 'hold' first!
Yeahyeahhh, and we got mango birthday cakeee from Breadtalk!
NICEEE, ME LIKE! (Y)
But the weird thing is, I didn't even celebrate my b'day with family on 25 May itself. HAHAH!
They woke me up on the night beforee to cut cake :O Idk why eitherr!

Anywayy, on 25 May itself,
the day started out as a normal dayyyy! Ooh but i received really wonderful calls/msges! :DD
I loveee you guys sooo much! (: All your msges super sincere! (ESP NONG NONG ONESS!)
But sorry, I replied latee! Cause I fell asleep even before the clock struck 12! :(
hahaha!
Went schoool, nothing happened zzz.
Then I started thinking abt how this year's birthday might turn out to be..
ONE WORD: BORINGGG!
hahaha but NO! I was wronggg!!
After school, Kx came to find me! He was at library waiting alreadyyy. Weeehee! :D
So...happy me rushed down right after faci released us!!
Hooohooo, andand, saw him and his FAKE ear studs. MINE'S REAL, and his is FAKEE. HEHHEH!
Stephyy called me and told me classroom's closing... and that aunties rushing them.
so I just hurried Kx to go back class with me.
Actually I rushed him even before Stephy called cause I wanted him to see my classmatesss, heehee!
o.O but guess who we saw in the lift.
we saw the cleanerrrs!! and i asked them if they're closing naoo.
They said noo, and they went to LAWN food court instead-.-
So i was already doubting...

and yayyyyyyyy! my wonderful classmates surprised me when we went into classroom!!
I saw that the classroom was all dark (SOMETHING WAS AMISS) and then,
woohooo!! They sang me birthday song! :D
hahahah! and the words typed on the screen etc!
LOVEDDD ITTT! ^^
Faci was there tooo! (MY FAVE FACI SOMEMORE)
hahahah!! THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING (:
So happy!!
Thank Shafi'e for the planning!!
And SKX kept it from meee >:( hahaha! but yeahh, thats the element of surprise anw!! :D
Heehee! I love W46C!! I love my friends!! Andand I loveeee him! ;D

I enjoyed my birthday with him tooo! :)
We went to buy food for movieee,
then watched The Last Song! :)
Hehheh, the movie not badddd, but not the main part anww.
After that was dinner @ Seoul Garden!! :)
And yeahh mann,
at cotton on, before getting his present... I revealed the answer to him and told him what i really needed/wanted for birthday.
I said its a wallleeeettttt! then he started criticising my wallet-.- except for the fact that its pinkk!
hahaha!

And during dinner, he actually told me he bought me a walleeeet!!
THE ONLY BRAND I NOTICE SOMEMORE (SINCE LAST YEARRR!!)
HEHHEH!! :D
So yeah, I just kept laughing and laughing when he told me that! And he was quite scared at first..
thinking he had bought something I didn't like or something!!
hahaha! cutee :D

Yeahyeahh so naoo i got a new wallet!! PEOPLE,
STOP LAUGHING AT MY PINK TORN AND TATTED WALLET ALREADY.
Its finally a 'yesterday' thinggg!! YAYYYEEE!! :DDDDD

hahaha, a nice long hug beats everything ^^
tata, i enjoyed my birthdayy soo much!! :D

THANK YOUU ALLLL!! (:

UT 1 Overrrrr ;)

2010-05-14T18:55:00.000-07:00

Yayye me!! UT 1 over! Weeheee!!

HMD!

2010-05-08T23:36:00.000-07:00

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY! :D

I dont know why, but it just feels weird for me to go up to you and give you a big bear hug,
wishing you a happy mother's day.
It's prolly due to the fact that we'd never been so affectionate to each other before.
And when you finally did give me a hug that day whilst in church,
I knew I was unable to control my active tear ducts.

No matter what, I really hope and yearn to see you happy.
Everything you had done for me, I know it by heart.
It's long numbered by me.

Today's your day. Love your carnations, enjoy your bird's nest. :>
It's nothing compared to your love for the three of us anyway.

Even as I was singing 'Give thanks' to you from the stage just now,
I saw that you were not looking toward my direction at all.
But I know that deep inside your heart, you know it,
you do know that I love you so. :)

You're cool and awesome, that's why I'm your daughter. ;)

My lazyyy saturdayyyy

2010-05-08T07:52:00.001-07:00

Today, saturday!

Hurrayyy!! THE ONLY DAY of the week i get to sleep in. :>
So I woke up this morning, and I only hear my mum's music playing from the living room-.-
Sooo loud can! HAHAHA thank God I managed to catch more sleep before she came in. HEHHEH!

At first I made plans today, to go out & to go churchhhh.
Stesha's birthday celebration! MANGO CAKEEEE! MY FAVE! ):
But I didn't go in the endddd, cause..
I had work to complete!
HAHA OB SUCKS, but still, I need to ace it! >.< Its like my nemesis!!
I can never seem to get my As for this module.
Is it me, or is it GL who's at it. Tskkkk!

Uh huh, back to the point: I didn't go for today's celebration!
Felt bad larh, but I've no choiceee. Cause there's a lot to present for this homework.
4 weeks' of stuff! Butbut, I only have to do 1 week's one lahh, cause teamwork!
Worse still, I dont really knw whats covered for week 2!! >.<
Omg im talking abt OB again.
-.-

Yeah so I didnt get to for today's celebration!
That Bennett was being soo irritating!! TSKK!
He pulled a prank on me! Mean thinggg.
I WANT YOUTH OUTING BTWWWWWW!
HAHAHA! I still rmb the last time was some Basketball thingy,
and I didn't play at all!!-.- Really larh, Im not good at it.
Andand, I dont wanna have more muscles!! Its enough mannn.

Today napped for 2 hours in the afternoon,
FEELING SOOOO TIRED NAOO.
but i doubt i can get to sleep later!! OH WELLS.

Wah this blog's super dead. -.-
Bexton revived his blogggggggg!! :D Hehheh time to SPAM SPAM SPAM again ;D
Okayyee im gonna get going. I gotta do my OB and Cognitive homework naoo.
-.- I cannot stand OB, really.

Yeahyeah burbyee!! :D

OB OB OB

2010-05-07T23:02:00.000-07:00

Preparations for Organisational Behaviour!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear Lord grant me the strength to pull through this!

I NEED TO ACE THIS MODULE BADLY! :(

It takes time; uh huh.

Bring it on

2010-05-07T09:24:00.000-07:00

I WISH MOSQUITOES SUCKED FAT, NOT BLOOD... (Y)

If everything came crashing down,
I'll have You to bring me up.

RP lib!

2010-05-04T02:57:00.000-07:00

I'm too tired to even move ): I'm at RP lib nowww! (:

I stormed out of class just now, saying goodbye to Adilah & Colleen,
ABSOLUTELY IGNORING that Shafi'e. Whatever he deserved it.

Yeahyeah today's Science was ....... I REALLY HATE PHYSICS KNOW.
That's why I didn't choose that detestable subject for secondary 3/4 rightttt!!
And now... AYEEE. Forget it, up till now, it's still manageable for me, thank God. :D

I finished my RJ for today, it was hardddd!! :\ I didn't know how to do,
so I just bombed 100 + words and that's it!! HEEHEEHEE.

Didn't manage to webcam with TY, SHER.
Managed to webcam for a while with LINGY, MABEL.
SO COOL, THEY'RE IN THE SAME CLASS AND ALL!
How coincidental is that??!! :D

-.- I cannot really sound high now.

Im in school naoooo

2010-05-02T22:18:00.000-07:00

It's break naoo and I finished my work for 3rd meeting!! YAYYE ME!! :D

Thanks to Alycia, we managed to get some time to slack ;D Cause she did the ppt!! hehhehh!
Now we're all looking at pretty girls and hot guys!! HAHAHA quite fun!! :D
Holly cannot stop laughing!! ._.

& Dominic's freaking funny LOL

2010-05-02T06:39:00.001-07:00

Okayye surprisingly I feel better, saying it out!
Afterall I kept it inside me for quite some time! >.<

School tmrwwww!! WHY POLY NO LABOUR DAY HOLIDAY!! ):
Eeee not fair. HAHAHA
ayee heck care, tmrw's comm skills and i'm totally dreading it!!
I STILL CANT GET MY DAMNIT A FOR THIS MODULEEE.

Yesh! I really think my babes are super cuteee,
I love y'all ttm!! :D

Random lazy sat!

2010-04-30T21:26:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I wish I knew what you are actually thinking.
To a certain extent, I believe that you do not trust me at all.

I got my 3rd A! :]

Okayokay this is baddddddd.
Adding whole class' msn doesn't make me feel close to them,
cause I do not have most of their numbers yet!

Tsk, bringing laptop to school is such a chore sometimes.

I feel exhausted (mentally). Emotionally drained as well.
Idk what the hell do I really want.

2010-04-30T08:32:00.000-07:00

TGIF! :D

Hehheh, oh yeah. Star gazing session was (L)
Btw, now I'm having straight Bs. :( OMG GIVE ME BACK MY A!

Wahh, totally loving Organisational Behaviour. I (L) Mrs Gloria's stories!! HEHE

I'm absolutely exhausted! I can't help but to scream whenever I get my new problems from Math & Science!!

3421

2010-04-27T07:53:00.000-07:00

In the beautiful world with your lovely presence; no more.

Ahhh :(

2010-04-25T18:41:00.000-07:00

That ugly C!

sickk.

2010-04-24T23:31:00.000-07:00

Me detest being sickkk. :(

Now I've no energy anymore. Even as I reply smses, it's all less than 8 words. ><
&& I'm using my lappy while I'm lying down!!
How do I do it?
Figure that out!
RAWR I dont like bodyaches tooo. :(

Weekends!!

2010-04-24T09:14:00.000-07:00

THANK GOD.

I ACED MY SCIENCE FIRST LESSON. :D

Wah, I'm serious. I LOVE THE WEEKENDS!! TIME FOR ME TO SLEEEEEEP!
but im going to wake up at like 730 am tmrw :( so sad.

2010-04-23T06:45:00.000-07:00

-; I have come to realise that I know nothing at all.

I simply detest this emotional struggle I have with me myself and I.

I wish the world could be smaller so more coincidences could make me feel happier

;At least enough to fill this emptiness up.

I ever wondered why this feeling just gets stronger.

I like to make myself give up on you, because this future seems bleak.

Tried to, wanted to, failed to.

~.->-<-.~

Red is the new black. Mwahaha byebyeee pink!

Okay I actually wrote a lot but decided to delete the whole post.

Thanks to RP, I learnt how to do summary.

Math gonna get C or below, for sure! Unless tcher's insane to give me a B. (I reallyreally don't expect an A for this, cause I admit, I didnt put in any effort at all. I was laughing my head off the whole day!! & almost pee-ed in my pants weehee *SHY* )
On thursday I was like the sole survivor, all my teammates were sick except for me. Today I kena.. Zzz, pretty serious. Bad cough! Sore throat! Non-stop water tap! ): Fever next. (PRAY HARD THAT IT WONT COME)
Today's presentation was pretty good :) I LIKE. Good job Colleen, Liting, Adilah! :)
Tomorrow family dinner mwahaha. Got good food, I LIKE.
Tomorrow UNIT DAY, going back to st nicks to rah rah. I dont wanna play gamessss! Lazy, hehheh!
Endless junk food for me though I'm feeling sickkkk. Zzz, guess what. Almost whole class' sick! 1 sick = whole class sick. WOOHOO bonded us ;) W46C rocks lahhh!!
Mr Larry L called me!! HAHAHA, was shocked lahh. He complained why we never jio him out. >< *AHEM* I wonder who stood Kaixuan & me up that day........ He said all go prawning one day. And asked me pay myself, it shall not be on Kaixuan. HAHA, since not on Kaixuan, then on Mr Larry lorr!! WEEHEE :D
*YAWNS* VERY TIRING DAY FOR ME TODAY. SICK & TIRED.
Shafi'e never comeeee. HAHAHA, think he's like dying or something. Hope he's fine now! LOL. (REALLY MY TWIN SIA, GERMS ALSO COME AND SPREAD TO ME)
Okay my whole post so colourful weeheeee!! :D
Got an ugly C for communication module. WAAAHH :( Must work harder!!

Eh.... I think my post is quite summarised already!! HAHAHA.

Room for improvement though!!

& I wanna join service learning IG!! EH PEOPLE DONT LAUGH!! IM GONNA HELP THE OTHERS :D

2010-04-22T08:31:00.000-07:00

I have never forgotten about any single moment with you.
I love & care for you more than you think.
Its just that you do not know it, that's all.
But I cant even tell you how much I like you.
I've no right to do it at all.
It's been quite a while, why is it that I still can't get over you?
I haven't seen you for quite some time, but my feelings have never once faded.
Instead, it went the wrong way.

YAYYY!! :D

2010-04-20T06:28:00.000-07:00

HAHAHA YAYY YAYYYYY YAYYYY! AWESOME ME HAS COMPLETED MY WORK!!!! :D
THANK GOD!! I managed to finish my homework like, within 30 mins??! HEHHEH!!

Just admit it, I'm wonderful. Weeheee!!! HAHAHA YES!!
Yupyup, I was actually frustrated in school at first because I REALLY DIDN'T KNOW how to do my workkkkk.
But yipppeeee, I finally had the ~~effort~~ energy to THINK & THINK & THINK after I came home.
And I could complete my work by 2359hr YAY! ;) Praise the Lord!!! :D

Oh y'know! Today I was lateeee!!
Ok, now I really realised that I can't neglect HS' prompts.
Cause righttt, I had never been so careless during school days before!!

I actually forgot to bring my little lappy to school!! WTH rightttt! >:(
Thank God, I realised it while I was on my way to YCK. Soso,
I alighted at YCK and went back to AMK.
Callled my maid to ask help me bring my lappy to MRT Station.
Waaaah, THANK YOU TINI!! :D WEEHEEE! ;D

Yeaps, RAN to RP today, butbut my shoes were like half spoiling lorr.
Eeyer they're somewhat new leh!! -Rolls eyes. (HAHAHA SHAFI'E I NEVER COPY!!)
Yup then first time saw my Sci Tcher. LOL!
Today's teammates were:
Shafi'e (ROLLS EYES heh) , Li Ting, Marieanne & Yu Xin.
HAHAH and we were supposed to do on BLUUUUURRRDDDD. (Blood)
Yeaaaah! Inside joke hahahaha. But no offence to anyone out there, cool it! Hehheh.
Guess what, we did quite well! Okay lahh, I know the comments were just soso ._.
but I still believe that we all put in THAT EXTRA effort and went THAT EXTRA mile already. ;)
GOOD JOB TEAM 3!! :D

Yeaps and personally I loveeee today's lesson! LIKE REALLY REALLY!
Cause the topic was on BLOOOOOD and it's one of my fave in BIOLOGGGGY. HEHHEH! :D
No, I don't like Biology just cause of Sexual Reproduction okayy!! HAHAHA! Im not ty. Hee
She even wanted a PRACTICAL nehhhh. HAHAH THAT FUNNY GIRL! ;)

So after school went to find SJ, LC, CM!! :) Hehheh, they did some funny stuff at SJ's class.
HAHAHA but I was moooooody. So I emo-ed at one corner. HAHA.
Yeahh then we walked to Koufu and JAP FOOD IS LOVEEEE!!
Okay honestly I had never been a fan of Jap Food lah, but it was really not bad!
Though it's not a lot laaah (the ingredients)
But who cares??! THE PRICE IS 50% CHEAPER THAN OUTSIDE ONES.
The taste is still gooooood (Y) Heh, wo xi huan!!

Shafi'e came cause he was LEFT ALL ALONE (AWWWW SO SAD, whos the pitiful one) as he needed to wait for his father. HAHAHA that loser played with me viwawa.
Though my mood still not stable. & I won him repeatedly for Sushido!!
As for Big 2.5......... he did. -.-
hahahah! Yeahh thats about it!!
SO SAD FOOD FAIR's OVERRRRRRRRRRRRR :(

MATH TMRW!
LAST MODULE!! HOPE MY TEAMMATES ARE FUN AND GOOD! :D Prayyy hard.

Her voice trailed off...

2010-04-19T05:58:00.001-07:00

-;The usual pace seems to have slowed down...

RJ (N)

HAHAHA! Today was not Sci!! YAY!! :D It was some Communication module!

I'm quite satisfied with what I've got today. :)

Lovely team mates, nice faci, good seat, nice shoes etc. heeeheeeeheee. :]

I finally met Angela today! Yippee she wasn't late hahahah! :D

Went to class, I wanted to catch some sleep before 8:30a.m. but faci was already in class.

Hoho Alex told me that I was in team 4 so I went to the table aloneee!

Then my team mates came in.

I worked with Steph, Alycia, Dominic & Holly today. :D

Ehhhh, we did quite well! Thanks to Dominic seriously. Haaa. :)

Okok classmates, to tell y'all the truth:

We actually did the presentation wrongly!! HAHAH! (well sorta!)

The PDT wasn't really intended for we realised that it would be irrelvant to the topic,

soooo, we wanted to delete that 3 slides (involving PDT points).

But we didn't cause PPT was submitted to Ms. Diana already, sososo,

Dominic came up with this brilliant idea to make it seem like we were giving an example of how PDT is like. :>

HAHAHA! Hence I introduced it as a demonstration on how we go about it on the PPT. :)

Super smart idea lah! :D That saved us!! Hehe,

hopefully we can get A for it. ;) Since the feedback/comments were pretty satisfying.

Hehheh.

School ended after 6th P, & omgggggg!!!! I was like damnit hungry can! Really lorr,

I was like throwing tantrum in class. HAHAHA!!

Went to buy prata sausage & chicken sticks.

Waah I love RP's food lah all damn nice. Heeheeee, so awesome!

Yeah after eating those, I was still hungry.

So Alex offered to get food for me!! :D

Then I wanted the PAUs from 7-11. Hohoh

Uh huhhh, then I bus-ed back home,

& I found myself sleeping during the last 15 mins of the journey back home. ._.

I was dead beat. And I'm serious.
I can never seem to get enough sleep, I don't get itttttttt.

Okay, my first module's grade is taking forever to be out.

-.-

HAHAHA, science tmrw!! BORRRRRRRRRING.

Let's pray hard that I'll get fun teammates again.

(V)

I just realised RJ I did it wrongly.

-.- Darn this crap who cares.

Sunday

2010-04-18T05:43:00.000-07:00

-; In a dilemma, as always.

Currently eating this prawn cracker that's bigger than my head! HAHAHA!!
Really lor, its sooo hugeee! But its very nice seh :D hehee!!

Man I should really stop eating. ._.
HAHAHA, school tmrw, I'm dreading it.
:(
I think it's sci tmrw!! Aishah told me it's gonna be on 'blood'.
HAHAHA! OK! I shall be positive about it.
Hope my team's gonan be fun :)

Weekends are here!!!

2010-04-17T07:07:00.000-07:00

Alright, acceding to Mr Tin's special request, I'm here to update/revive this blog! :D

Now let's see... Weekends are finally here! :D Have you enjoyed yourself today??! Please do not waste such a lovely Saturday, especially those who are preparing for school & those who already started school. (LIKE ME!) HAHAHA! :D

Yeah, so far, school's been great! Like really, I did enjoy myself! :) Hehhehheh!
I still miss the orientation camp though.. it was AWESOME :)
I wanna especially thank my wonderful OGLs!! Hehe! Melvin, Sheu & Wan Ting!!! YAYYYYY!
(See Melvin your name's HERE! Though you might not be reading thissss)

HAHAAH! & Gopa, Tasha, Wei Li etc! You guys rock mann! SOH ROCKS TOO :>
School's Only Hope HAHAHAHA!
Yupp though last night of Orientation was ): for me... But it's okay. Lol i'm pretty fine now. :)
Team 15 I LOVE YOU!!

Uh huh, so first day of school wasn't that baddddd.
Shafi'e & I couldn't stop laughing. ._. HAHAHA! :D
My team members were Li Ting, Lee Min, Shafi'e, Lay Tin.
We ate tgt, then had to rush out our workkkkk.
Had a crazy mad rush, but managed to complete it in time :D
Thank God Gloria gave us extraaa time. hahaha!

Righttttt, second day was cool too. :) I was in a bad mood after school though,
hahaha! So... I stayed at my seat to do my work. I was being such a good girl!! (Y)
Then my dearest SJ, CM, LC cameeee. :D HAHAA!
My mood was much better after seeing them. Heh! :)

Yeaps, I limped all the way to bus stop.
& YEAHOOOOOOO! I finally bought my concession pass! (V)

Bought new flats today! :D Hehheh, gonna wear them to school on Monday!
Alrighttttt, that's all. BYEEE! (BORING POST!)

2010-04-13T05:21:00.000-07:00

2nd Day of Orientation todayyyyy, (: hee!

I woke up at 7a.m. today & quickly went to bathe.
Shittt, I couldn't scrap off the blue nail polish on my fingers properly ): now looks very weirddd.
hahaha, & i finished my nissin cup noodles CHILLI CRAB!! in like 10 mins for breakfast.
super unhealthy, i know but i said grace for it! weehee :D

was very sleepy while i was on the train, this rp guy was like staring at me falling asleep zzz.
hahaha! i already tried my best not to fall asleep lorr! but to no avail!! D:

tug-of-war!! my only motivation to drag me to school today,
but got sooo disappointed. Sian I dont wanna talk about it already lahh! HAHAA
SOH ROCKS THE HOUSE MANN! We came in 2nd overalll! <3
I'm totally loving this! :) Thank God. :D
We changed our home base to the air con area (:
hehheh!

Then cheered and danced and played around, super fun today!! :D
I can't wait to go to school tmrw, andand,
see if __________________! (THIS IS DAMN IMPORTANT TO ME LAHHHH)

Okie TAG me lah!! Hehheh byeee! :D

first day of freshmen orientation!!

2010-04-12T06:17:00.000-07:00

HIYAAAAA! :D Back from Rockin' in the Republic! HAHAHA!

Oohooh help!! :( My nose is seriously itching a great deal! Soso itchy sia!!
Eh people!! STOP MISSING ME FOR NOW. Cause its really itchyyyy! :(
HAHAHAH and whenever I scratch my nose, it doesn't really ease the itch. ._.
So stop thinking/miss me for now okayyyyyz. Even though I know its hard not to.

Don't say I am egoistic okay!! Hahaha cause i've evidence one!
LOOK AT THIS (Taken from ms ang shux's bloggg):

LIMHUILI IS STILL AT CAMP. TOGETHER WITH PEANDA. Wanna talk to them zz.
HL come back see this immediately text me okay got things to tell you!

can see or not? I bold it for you already eh :>

okay this girl's weird, really. She came back from TP Camp then she never tell me anything.
-_- HAHAHA!
c'monnnn, im waitinggggggg. OH YA,
got new friends cannot forget about me okay. I DONT CARE! hahahah! :D

Oohooh, so first day of ~~boring 到不可以~~ orientation ended. LIKE FINALLY!!
HAHAHA, after 1 whole day of running aroundddd.
It's not THAT bad lahh, but it could've been better?
Thank God, we managed to run away from that 'stay under the hot sun' game.
that's what I named the game lorr,
cause I see people running around passing idk what water to each other under the hot sun.
o.O

hahaha & lunch was.... nothing to say mann.
my team happily ate the packed food.
then they used the loud hailer to tell all of us to 'freeze'
asked if any of our food went bad.. like sour etc.
we just continued eating...
then after we finished,
they asked those who haven't eaten to not eat the long beans.
the long beans which we happily ate! waaaah!! they very funny horr.
then some of my teammates super worried and went to tell melvin our OGL.
lol i wanted to laugh also cannot leh, so weird.. i dont know anyone well.
hahaha!! MAYBE ONLY URM, LEE PING??
anyway i feel so proud of myself i think im really smart!! HAHA!
i managed to think of the how-to-not-make-the-damn-egg-break idea!! :D
it really didn't break lahhhhh WEEEHEEEE! :D
at first we all didn't feel too good about it,
as we saw 1 broken egg inside the basket which has a similar way of wrapping it as us.
tsssssk. we made it in the end YAY!! admit it, im smart and good. (Y)

okay lor, AT LEAST I GOT MOTIVATION TO DRAG ME TO SCHOOL TMRW!
though orientation's really full of games only. -.-
i cannot wait to get my ezlink card lah,
i topped up more than $100 already leh, during the hols.
adult fare really darn scary..
i can use up $10 within 3 days!
tsktsk!!

& i haven't collected my cert!! AHH laziness kills.
okay im definitely going back for my awesome orange bowl.
bringing tanqijun's helium baaaaalloon! REALLY, i haven't forgotten.
i will honour my word lah okay, just give me time! im really lazyyyy.
:D

chenshan's funfair i think im going. trying to help her sell some ticks now!
but dr seah just smsed me to ask her help out for like 2 hours lehh,
means i only have like 3 hours left to play in the funfair? D:

arrrhyooo. ): okay shall see how!
sch's tug-of-war gonna be awesome tmrw!!!!!!!
ANGEL you know what i mean. ;) HEHHEH

okkk, gonna call someone now. sian, i dont like to use my hse phone lahhhh.
why can't he call me instead >:(
hahaha!
okayokay i shall stop complaining, yupyup!

MY MOTIVATION TO GO SCHOOL TMRW, hmph. BYE! :D

Friday Afternoonnnn

2010-04-08T22:19:00.001-07:00

/edit @ 4:15p.m.: Tagboard's uppppp! Please taggggg ;D

Omg, I've church later!! I can't wait!! :D

Arrgh now I'm at home.
I was supposed to go for the pre-orientation camp (though I didnt sign up for it, my intention was to just pop out somewhere with the consent form) but I didn't.
Causecause I slept at like 4:30a.m.??! And I had to wake up at 6:30a.m. if i were to go for the POC. HAHAHA you think i'd have the energy to run around for the whole day? o.0
Probably nottt! Even though I know I can be a superhero at times!! =D

Currently eating Yan Yan Creamy Strawberry Dip Biscuit Stick!!
So sad lah, no vanilla flavour or chocolate flavour at home!! ):
Strawberry's my LEAST favourite flavour HAHAHA!
&& The packaging's my least favourite tooo! ITS PINKK!! Omg >.<
hahaha okok! I shall not complain anymoreee! :D
Strawberry not too bad lah, at least it's still FOOD!! HAHA!

Ooh yesyes, I really wanna thank God for the wonderful friends who had been by my side,
ever ready to lend me their awesome listening ear (or shld i say eyes?) !! :D
Great thanks to MANY PEOPLE!
You people know who you are lahh hor??! :D No need me to SPECIFY.
I don't want y'all to think that I'm biased mann!! HAHA I'm so not!! :D
I love you all SO SUPER MUCH!!
You're as sweet as... THE STRAWBERRY DIP!!
HAHAHA I LIKE MY DESCRIPTION!! x)

Ooh yesterday caught Hannah Montana on TEEVEE!
Omg I missed Jackson sooo much!! (NOT JACKSON TIN HAHAHA)
& ITS JUST SO FUNNY!! HAHAHA
i couldn't stop laughing!!
(at least it makes me forget about something hehe)

OMG i suddenly realised I didn't reply Sherlyn!! HAHA!
arghh sorry girl ): I didn't hear the LOUD ringtonee. & I'm not being sarcastic, really.
HAHAHA and Angel just POOOFED! and disappeared!! heyhey she hasn't replied me!! grr! ):

talking about the POOFED part, WAHAHAHHAAHAHAHHA.
Totally reminds me of Kai Xuan!! HAHAHA!

Yeah okay, me shall not be random anymoreee.

Whoo everyone's in camp now!! Okay not EVERYONE, but many!!
My classmates-to-be in SOH POC,
Kx, Sx, Cheryl and many more in TP Camp,
Sherlyn in NP Induction thingy
AHHH!

School's really opening soon.
Omg shall I say I can't wait...? :\

HEHHEH my godmama coming later, need to help her with stuff.
After that need to go church!! WAAAH
Okok see you, burbyeee!! (I still cant put the tagboard howww??!)

Surprise KX birthday

2010-04-05T07:19:00.004-07:00

Ok, finally, this ended.

HAHAHA fun fun :D Didnt take pics though. Lazy to talk about it.

Anyway, tmrw going to church for prayer meeting. Soooo long never go already.
:D
I can't wait fr Tai Seng MRT Station to be opened!
Ok internet connection's weirdddd

2010-04-01T09:28:00.000-07:00

hurrayzzzz i slept for at least 8 hours on the night before! x) like finallyyyy.
im on my way to removing my eyebags! yeahoooo! slept at 4, woke up at 7, slept back till 12+ :D

i've been sleeping at like 3am or 4am, waking up at like 7am or 8 am.
so i only get like 4-5 hours of sleep everyday!
tsktsk, how cannnnn.

yupyup so yesterday i slept at 4am. very late i know!
cause i was on MSN with some friends, like jackson, shux, linghui etc. hahah
you usually talk longer with fun people :D
guess what, shux said i look like pucca & xiao wan zi when she saw my display pic!
hahahah! i couldnt stop laughing when she showed me the pucca pic okay!

(do i really look like her? o.0)

ohoh i was using the windows 7 and its awesome can.
after using it i didnt feel like using my old comp back :D
hahaha
its not that different but its still very different! 0.o geddit?
yah talking bout it,
i collected my new lappy! thinkpad x201 (1.4 kg!!!!)
to me, thats like the most exciting part.
hahahahaahaha and its fast!
yupyup but actually on the day of collection,
i was sick. then i went to funan IT mall with yizhuang & mum & tini & rachael.
yizhuang came first, and we were late. sorry yizhuang!!
yupyup then we went to look at printers, then went to the shop.
ohoh btw i saw wilfred from LHub! Lol bet he thought we couple sia -.-
cause he gave THAT look. but heck lah, we're totally not man.
close like bro & sis :D just that this younger sis bullies him a lot.
hehheh! :>

when we went into the shop,
theres a lot of confusion and it turned out that my lappy was delivered to RP.
woahhhh, at first they said collect at RP, then they say collect at the shop,
then when we go, they say delivered to RP liao?! omg
my mum paid at the shop and we took the receipt and printer.
hahaha
thanks yizhuang for carrying it though you were sick! :O
yupyup then yizhuang and i head off to woodlands while my mum & tini & rachael alighted at amk. x)
then my maid helped to carry the printer home.
woahhh dont see her small small,
her strength a lot more than yours okay! :D

on our way to woodlands,
both of us were asleep. shows that we're super tired! haha!
then reached. yizhuang went toilet.
i text him saying i'll wait for him at burger king.
but then i ended up at the toilet as well. ><
so yizhuang waited for me outside burget king instead.
hahaha
went pasar malam thats outside cwp.
bought taiwan chicken chop and taiwan sausages.
woah i should go taiwan one day man and eat all their food.
hahaha
shared the chicken chop while we walked to RP.
hahaha
we were guessing how many couples we'd see on our way to RP entrance.
so he guessed 3 and i guessed 4.
i lost ><

yupyup went to collect the laptop & the configuration took 10 years.
lol!
yizhuang watched happy feet which they were showing -.-
after that, took bus 169 back to amk.
then went to take 22 to church.
was late, felt bad, repented. >< & i had no bible.
sighsigh!

yups, jackson not online! URGH i need to tell him something so badly!
hahaha
okay eating my noodles now which already turned cold as i am typing today's post!
hahah
fasted & diarrhoea-ed. omg ><
need to slowly adjust back le...

wheee i watched 'when in rome' today! but tickets super exp luh,
$10!!!
omg. there goes my money.
but its nice leh :D almost teared...
cause it talked about loveeee. hahaha

yah, then kaixuan came to Go4 today!
omg was so happy when he agreed to go! x)
yeah though its not near for him :D yay thanks kaixuan!
hahaha
my mum and i were being so funny in the bus :D
talked talked talked.
very fun :D then this 2 aunties came to talk to us too. hahaha
cool man!
(:
thank God for everything, really.
He is erasing those memories already.
wheee! im happy.

tmrw bb with youths! but i think i'd be stoning.
why?! cause i really dont wanna touch bb already.
hahahah
okay really gonna eat my noodles now! hungry ><
byeee!

2010-03-26T07:43:00.000-07:00

Thank you Rachel dearrrrrr for listening to me. THANK YOU!!
I thank God for you, I am happy to have talked to you, I MISS YOUUUUU!

(: THANK YOU LORD, THANK YOU RACHEL! (:

Omg, meet up soon. I seriously miss you. Too damn much.

Back from Msiaaaa (:

2010-03-26T04:10:00.001-07:00

8th zoe ministry finally ended (: i missed home sooo badly!
i craved for many local delights whilst in m'sia, hehe! (:
i brought a lot of food to m'sia and brought back a lot of food back to singapore!
(: i'm quite lazy to post up the pics!

shall post some pics later on!

first day;
took bus 1 with bexton tangggggg and he was tying the idk what band.
felt pretty bored so i listened to songs. oh & i finally finished dwl! (:
it's soooo nice!
people go watch it! hen hao kan (: hen sweet (: made me think about my past relationships hahaha! & my ex crushes <:
didn't take long before we reached the hotel grand paragon.
eh seriously it isn't that bad! although it's 3stars only, it looked/felt like 4stars hotel! so we went into our rooms to slack (:
me & xinyi shared the lappy to watch dwl :D
was thinking which room jooye&je eung in...
so went down to ask auntie adrina. then i called their room (:
turned out that jooye was also looking for me! hehe (: love that silly girl.
yup, then me&jooye kept taking pics, and secretly took pics of xinyi!
haha after that we went for dinner, then conference! (:
pastor lee layed hands on me &jooye 3 times, we were wondering why...
so i asked jooye to ask him why he did that, haa & he said, 'its God's will' lol!
actually i think its due to the fact that both of us were tired, esp jooye.
haha, when he layed hand on my head for the 3rd time, he used force to turn my head around ~! cause i was distracted by the fun things at the back, hoho! (:
yah, then at night i had a great night's sleep (:
cause too tired already ):
i didnt even bathe! lol.

second day;

sd asked me wake up at 7am! ):
i was sooo tired. st allowed me to sleep more~ but sd didnt allow :(
so sad. and tired. and annoyed.
haha dont talk bout it already!
breakfast buffet i took a lot a lot a lot! (:
then i was very tired during morning prayer,
was like dozing off nothing much happened,
at night, xy&je&ys&b came! then i was very happy, ran to find them (:
and ate moreee (:
hehe ohoh~ me & xinyi stayed together at night, slept together.
both of us super stubborn, kept fighting with each other the blanket.
hehe & bought a lot of food. went for healing~
finally was my & zk's turn.
oh zk's took about 20 mins, mine was about 1 hr 15 mins...
i also dont know why mine took so long!
i think cause theres a lot of things inside me that need healing :/
sigh, really, i dont like to put up a brave front ):
even as i say im fine, im alright, i got over it already, im happy, im never truly happy~

i realised that once you're gone, it means for real, you're gone forever why, did i even say goodbye. (i really feel as if im crying inside)

anyway, be happy! (: smileeee smile(:

during healing, i also dont know if i fell asleep...
then you know what, at the start of it,
the pastor kang (not our pastor kang) asked me 'boy or girl?'
then i was like ~!!????!?!?!?!!?!? hahahs very shocked!
in my mind 'do i look like a boy? o.0 hope not'
i hope during healing i was in a clear state of mind,
cause if i fell asleep, it might mean that my spirit isn't awakened ):
according to xinyi (by ps. evan)
yeah that night me &xinyi joked a lot, very fun (: hehe

third day;

haha very fun~had constipation ): xinyi kept laughing hahah!
then youths went shopping in the afternoon (:
saw this poor bird that couldn't fly ): wanted to help it, but then.. i couldn't reach it ):
yeah, then xinyi beckoned me to follow, so i decided to just leave it alone.. pray for the bird! (: yup, then dinner then conference...
then i cant rmb what happened alr.
oh! was running up & down, trying to get the internet connection.. had very urgent thing.
met this waiter who was so mean!
but forget it. yeah, thank God, everything went smoothly! (:

fourth day;

sx came over! haha, thank uncle peter for sending her over (:
most imptly, thank God she could come. hehe, her tongues could be opened so its good(:
yeah~ by then, my mood was already quite bad though.
cause i was thinking bout many stuff. then mood got quite bad...
not moodswings, its cause someone got me quite angry.
but anyway, the whole conference ended so well! (:
i loveeee to dance with the youths its so fun :D
hahaa, oh! during impartation, yimqi&xinyi&me sat up tgt at the same time, so cool (:
yeah, then took bus back...joked a lot with bex, tim, shux (:
haha, me & shux fell asleep~!
then we thought we were still at woodlands checkpoint when we already reached tpy! haha!
it was so funny, cause me and her were still in sleepy zzz mood.
then we didnt know what was happening. i got bex to take all the gums, hahahah!
then home sweet home! (:

mum told me tmrw got prayer, so i quickly went to sleep, next morning woke up feeling soooo refreshed! [:
hehe, went to church early. saw many familiar faces.
gave ___ the chocs, going to bring more on sunday (:
then ps. kim prayed for us, getting more sensitive to HSF~
yeah, then at night, went to airport! (: was very fun (:
saw __________!!!! haha he looks DIFFERENT! but better(:
yeah. xy told me something shocking and till now, i still cant get over the shock -_-
hahahs !!!!
we waited for so long, for pastor kim's flight.
then when they're checking in, xinyi and i went toilet. that girl ah!
hahaha took so darn long in toilet.
in the end, the koreans left already~
lol -.-
for the whole 3 hrs we had to go toilet at that time.
so funny luh! missed the crucial moment ):
yeaps,then went home with ic, tim, and 1 auntie.
that auntie thought i was a korean! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i finally look like a korean. hahahahahahahahaha
im gonna learn more korean words from je eung & jooye!
yeah! reached home at about 11plus, then today whole day had stuff to do..
so only now then blog (: ahhh, how i wish my friends will still blog now!
cause its really boring when they dont blog! nothing much to do~
anw, now i'd been real annoyed with things.
idk, maybe its not that person, its just me. & you, i need to talk to you so badly. ):
i feel as if im gonna get drowned soon, if i dont tell you what i want to say.
everyone seems to be drifting away from me.
i want to talk to someone, so badly.
to tell that person everything im feeling right now.
but everyones so busy with things ):
i need a heart-to-heart chat with someone soon. ):
anyone will do. someone who still cares?
cause i really dont know what i should do.
God knows whats happening, and i know He wants me to decide.
but, i really really feel very lost. someone just lend me a listening ear ):
thank you Lord, for listening to my heart. (: Your presence beats anything else.

PICTURES(: 8th Zoe Ministry - Johor Bahru ; Hotel Grand Paragon

Ebuddy in msia :)

2010-03-23T01:08:00.000-07:00

2010-03-18T08:32:00.000-07:00

whee although i'm already tired, exhausted, lethargic, feeling SO EXTREMELY fatigue, worn out & yes you got my point, i still want to blog. hohoho! :D
i just ordered my new laptop online & it'll be on its way here! :D hehheh
i feel extremely blessed & fortunate because i have Lord who loves me so much,
& my awesome mum as well.
even though im going through some shit with some cretin, i still feel happy.
because the Lord's with me. :) hehe.
but no matter what i think im beginning to have issues with liars and naive kids.

my mum knows that this acer lappy's going to kill me if i were to ~~bring~~ lug it to school everyday in the future & decided to get me a new lappy :D wheee! x)
2.4 KG BYE! 1.4 KG HELLO! :) one kilo makes a HUGE difference.

what's more, it works on an i5 processor and im finally rescued from the **** windows vista!
all the licensed programs will be installed into the laptop and mannnn, i can save a bomb! (:
:D everything is a blessing.
ya, honestly, even ____ tells me that the program started out as a mistake. -_-
hahaha. true luh! :)

these few days i was really busy!
haven't had enough sleep. & i really missed out on a lot with my family & friends!
oh yes! my papa mama are back home again! im sooo happy :)
marvellous time i spent with my family be it just 20 mins or so @ airport.
rachael wore this bumble bee outfit and began running about. so cute!
pictures soon, hopefully. (x

work work work. precat precat precat. course course course. promote promote promote.
i work on it, i dream about it, i think about it, i rush with it & i earn from it.
no, that should not be what i am pursuing.

S-T-O-P!
*snaps fingers*
God should be the one. He should be the centre of my life.
but why am i always doing things like this.

i dont know whats going on in my head and in my heart.

unfortunately,

the things happening are taking a toll on me.

i need some time alone soon, to adjust back.
i need to sort out the mixed feelings in me.
i need to break free from my past.
i need to commit.
i need to cross the boundary.

most importantly, i need to let go of everything i used to have.
even though i still feel so damn much for you.

if i gave you my hand again, i would run away from you once more before you even realise it.
because no matter what, i'd feel that i'm not good enough for you.
you're just too good, really. too good to be true.

How did I get here? I turned around and there you were
I didn't think twice or rationalize
'Cause somehow I knew

That there was more that just chemistry
I mean I knew you were kind of into me
But I figured it's too good to be true

I said, "Pinch me, where's the catch this time?"
Can't find a single cloud in the sky
Help me before I get used to this guy

They say that good things take time
But really great things happen
In the blink of an eye

Thought the chances to meet somebody
Like you were a million to one
I cannot believe it, you're one in a million

All this time I was looking for love
Tryna make things work that weren't good enough
Till I thought I'm through, said, "I'm done"
And stumbled into the arms of the one

You're making me laugh about the silliest stuff
Say that I'm your diamond in the rough
When I'm mad at you, you come with your velvet touch

Cant believe that I'm so lucky
I have never felt so happy.
Every time I see that sparkle in your eyes

They say that good things take time
But really great things happen
In the blink of an eye

Thought the chances to meet somebody
Like you were a million to one
I cannot believe it, you're one in a million

All this time I was looking for love
Tryna make things work that weren't good enough
Till I thought I'm through, said, "I'm done"
And stumbled into the arms of the one

I said, "Pinch me, where's the catch this time?"
Can't find a single cloud in the sky
Help me before I get used to this guy

They say that good things take time
But really great things happen
In the blink of an eye

Thought the chances to meet somebody
Like you were a million to one
I cannot believe it, yeah yeah

They say that good things take time
But really great things happen
In the blink of an eye

Thought the chances to meet somebody
Like you were a million to one
I cannot believe it, you're one in a million, yeah

One in a million, yeah
You're one in a million

;but it all started out as a mistake in the first place.
a mistake is a mistake.
a regret is still, a regret.
but i thank God for you. really, i do.

2010-03-02T08:22:00.000-08:00

im listening to sermon now & talking on msn now. hehe.
but i miss my secondary friends now!
seriously, especially:
jellyfish clique!
class clique! + Vivien + Christy!
Sherlyn!
Angel!
sec 2duckies '07!

& many many more!

omg, really. jc life must have been hectic for them.
& work has definitely taken a toll on them!
i really want to sms you gals more & go out with you all.
i miss & love you all sosososososo much.

please, Lord. let me catch up with them soon. i miss them so dang much.

today Rev. Kang preached about relationships. :O everything he said was spot-on.
of course, he followed closely according to Bible to preach today's sermon. :)
thanks to Ken, i could report to work at 12:30p.m.
instead of going to hougang, i went to meet kaixuan at tangjong pagar.
ate at his old workplace and it was nice. :) foc somemore!
hoorays to bean curds i love tau hway. hehe
then we got pangseh-ed by this customer & this stupid porter come and annoyed us.
seriously he was so rude i could've shouted at him.
i almost said vulgarities thanks to him.

forget about the unhappy incident, we went to raffles city.
yippee it was quite fun! stupid kaixuan laughed at the 'rectangle' thing so much. eeediot!
he go and bully eleanor & deborah -.- by making the 2 girls buy 3 1.5 litre bottled drinks!
fought with him in the end lost cause deborah & eleanor could not hear me over the phone. o.0
hehheh but thanks to him i could get my _______ in vivo. :D

then we had to walk walk walk all the way to larry's house. (very far lah!)
was super tired. & i did not want to walk anymore. somemore i was carrying kaixuan's bag too.
super sian. larry's condominium building superrrrr big.
very nice! when we reached, we were like the last 2.
and larry was fishing while BBQ-ing. hehe super cool.
cause his condominium has this big river/sea that can fish. super super cool.

we went up his house and saw a hugehugehuge german shepherd.
i was really scared at first. but then i was not scared anymore.
instead, i walked past it! and i took picture with it! oh my mama :D (no i dont want to post it up i look super unglam inside lol) (hee pearlyn i borrow your catchphrase ah!)

yeah then we were barbequing the food & we chatted. very fun i really love this team. :)
so sad larry's got to leave. this team leader really made work much more fun than anyone can expect. hehe
thank you mr larry for the fun times & your help! i will definitely miss the help you had always offered us. especially the fun times & jokes!
can you believe it! we finished up the whole 2 kg of prawns we got! :D (stupid kaixuan stop complaining about how few prawns i caught! rawr!)
hehe then we played by the poolside.
i was the only one who did not get into the water. cause i was wearing shoes & long pants!
but in the end the rest still managed to splash some water on me. esp stupid kx!
haha but it was sooo fun im serious. im happy i managed to push him down the water! :) hehe!

okay thats all. we went home and now im very tired already. tomorrow got work and i cannot be late. :(
today upset kokying i feel so bad.
so i must really push myself. to do even better.

i reallyreallyreally miss my friends. my girlfriends i miss you all. ahhhh :(

i miss you all, i love you all. happy new year! :)

Cranky moment has it all

2010-02-28T09:11:00.001-08:00

okay what more can i say, i really love my family.

my aunts & mama cooked whipped up delectable dishes for the whole family (maternal side).
as usual, ten odd of us squeezed into our usual ~~cozy~~ hideout - that really small & stuffy bedroom.
but so what? i'd rather have all of us squeezed in one small room, smelling each other's body odour, than to stay in a huge comfortable place with not a single soul around me.
cause i love my papa mama & the companions in family God has given me.

but i learnt, nothing can be more important to me than God.
for i truly believe that without Him, i will have nothing.

okay so i had morning prayer today then service.
hehe the passion the joy the yearning! the fire's getting stronger, again.
oh right somehow i was being really diligent and i copied down notes during sermon.
so cute la jooye & chen shan were giggling away cause they drew this ugly thing & its now in my bag. :O
celebrated jagnes' birthday today, & guess what.
omg people i need to confess something.
a grain of rice accidentally got spit out of my mouth while i was trying to blow the candle.
(lol x 1000) the scene was epic. thank God no one saw hehe.

had cell afterwards, then was 'jamming' in worship hall.
hehheh super fun! but it'd have been more fun if more people were here. (:
hey youths do join in the fun kay! (:
i seriously bugged je eung & yisheng to like play keyboard/guitar for me cause i wanted to sing.
haha and woah, im really sorry to yisheng can.
i TOTALLY played like shit when he was trying to slow down for me.
sorry arh yisheng! :(

heh this was followed by buffet! woah awesome food lah, shiok to the max.
if only seafood was allowed in my family...

A Miracle Awaits You and I

2010-02-24T04:56:00.000-08:00

How come, nothing seems to fall in place, just yet?

2010-02-23T04:36:00.000-08:00

Sorry for not updating this blog properly for the past few weeks... (I was in the shittiest moods ever)

But it's okay. Everything's all well now. :) Okay not so. If you are reading this, I wanna tell you that I'm sorry for the insults I hurled at you. I do not wish to repay evil with evil. I will repent to God about this. Meanwhile, go have fun with your life. You only live once. Live it for God!! Kay, I've really nothing more to say to you already. Don't call me already. I REALLY meant it when I say, 'Last phone call' & 'I don't ever want to talk to you'. LOL unless you don't understand english. >< God bless you!

Okayyyyy, so everything's well now! :D Slowly, day by day, I let God cast out the pains & regrets I had, on Him. Thank You Lord!!! Praise the Lord! Because He has really put awesome friends around me. Most importantly, He has given Lord Jesus to us. To always be our best comfort. I love Jesus! (: When you're sad, do not forget, that someone is ready to catch you when you fall. It's none other than HIM! :) Really, thank you Lord!! For my family members too. :) Home is the best place to be in. On Earth :) Hehe. I love my job too! Though it's tiringggggg!
I love my team. I love it I love it! :D I must perform extremely well now. Cause my performance had been deterioting... (kay i cant spell that!) Thank God for my job. :) :) :) He answered my prayer, obviously! :D I got a great job, with awesome employers, awesome pay, awesomeeee teammates! &&&&&& With awesome flexible timings. HEHE, i get to slack! A LOT. Linghui was jealousssssss!

I am going to prepare my heart for 8th Zoe Ministry. HEALING! I really need it. I realised that I cannot let go of the past. (Not this but that) & Then, after that, I'll be absolutely fine on my walk with God. Because I have already accepted the Healing Grace that God has given. Now, I just have to learn more about it... :) Thanks Yz for the book. Now I'm reading it.

Oh ooooh, PRAWNING is extremely fun! :D I think I am very pro already la! I caught quite a few prawns, though I'm still new to it! :D HEHE. Butbutbut! I feel like an old uncle >.< Cause I always thought that prawning's for old uncles.. HAHA! Aye howww! I'm lazy to post up the pictures of the prawns!! Sorry Eleanor!! Can't tag you as the ppppuny prawn on the BBQ pit. Hehe.

Work has been extremely fun with my teammates around. :) I thank God for this job! Really! Aye, I shld just STOP complaining that I want to go join the telesales team instead! HAHA. Though my supervisor's thinking of putting me into telesales team now! Ahhhhh NOOOO :(

Okay. I need to stop typing/talking so crazily already. Back to Bible study for myself!!! :) ah, need to pray that I'm allowed to shift my schedule a bit, cause I want to go for prayer meetings in the morning. Let God decide what's good for me. :) I'm not allowed to quit alsoooooo. But its okay. I dont intend to quit. But anything for God!!! So I'll have to ask what He wants for me. Yup!

& Thank You Lord, I know You pulled me back because You love me.

2010-02-17T10:24:00.001-08:00

http://winkyvette.wordpress.com

2010-02-17T08:03:00.000-08:00

I don't wanna act all emotional with you anymore. Really, take it or leave it.
1 week of struggle, it's enough. I'm tired already.
Believe that the feelings were there or not, it's up to you. (You can doubt me forever)
-Avoid me for all I care. I'm sick of asking you out in vain already.

Our team rocks!!! Eleanor Deborah & I won $2 each today. <: GIRL POWER.
Thank God, we were not greedy.
Because it's clearly stated in the Bible that Greed leads to Poverty.
I had it in mind, because this is an important fact that we should all know.

Shopshopshop @ Far East Plaza wasn't gooooooooood.
CNY 4th day today, & many shops were still in the 'GONG XI FA CAI' mode.
So they were not opened! :( Anyway I am not very into shopping nowadays.
IDK WHY!

Pontian Wanton Noodles rock rock rock! :D
Awesome souppppppppppppppppppppp! MUST TRY! :)

As the days go by, I'm straying from Him. FOCUS.
I must pull myself together to move on from HERE.

HERE - the place where you made me fall. the place where you got me so hurt. the place I almost decided to change myself completely.

Why, have I become so insensitive to others' feelings?
I'm sorry, I don't want to hurt you either.
But you made me fall so hard first.

2010-02-12T09:41:00.000-08:00

I don't know how long more can I take it.

Is this really what God wants for me? ( I'm praying hard that all this isn't happening )

But it really is.

Learning Hub

2010-02-09T08:27:00.000-08:00

"Hello Auntie! I'm from the XXX (Company).......I'm actually here to-"

& the next thing you know,
you just got rejected, again.

-_-

Ok I should really thank God, at least I managed to clinch a sale. (After so duper long!)
Good job, Eleanor & Deborah you gals are great eh! :D

CNY & V-day's cominggggggg. Omg, after a LONG wait.

2010-01-19T09:18:00.000-08:00

Oh ooooops, I think I'm on some huge shopping spree again. I commented for 2-3 clothes in 1 night. & I'm going shopping with Bex, Angel, Meiling & Ma soon. HAHA, yay! Hmm but I doubt I'll spend money when I go out. Cause I really feel that the clothes sold in retail stores are way too overpriced.

Come to think of it, I was really too eager to get my wardrobe less malfunctioned. >.<

-

I went for morning prayer in church, cell group in Hougang & cell group in Sengkang. (:
Jesus, thank you for sending angels down to be by my side. You collected all my tears. I love you so much!

2010-01-17T20:05:00.000-08:00

I know that I cannot force my will on others. I can only pray for them.

Nobody truly understands me, not even myself, but only God.

I need to feel His love for me before I can love Him.

I really need to be stronger. I don't want THIS to happen again.

This is a spiritual warfare that is going on at home. & I will defeat my enemies.

If I had to give you up, I will. Cause you almost pushed me to that extent.

2010-01-13T23:08:00.000-08:00

Ugh man, I really wanna dye my hair. But I don't knowwwwwwwww.

It's like... I don't want to regret after doing it. Haha, shit I'm utterly confused.

This blog's so dead!!!

2010-01-11T08:14:00.000-08:00

I am grateful to God that I passed all subjects. Thank You Lord so much. Right from the start, I knew that I shouldn't have that single bit of anxiety inside me. It does not even come from You anyway.

What's done is done. I can't do anything about it anymore, but to praise the Lord! (:

Well you may think that my results are really bad. Hah, I won't say they are good. But at least I tried my best. I DID NOT GIVE UP TILL THE VERY END.

Although I was on the verge of giving up on many many occasions, I did not. Because the Lord has given me the STRENGTH to move on. It's really true.

I improved by 30+ points for my L1R4/5. I should really thank God that I did not get any F9s in my results slip. Although they are not at all satisfactory, I have to be contented with what I have. Well I guess this is what I deserve from my efforts. 'You reap what you sow'. I wanna reap good harvest someday. :D

Thank you all who comforted me & gave me advice (: I really appreciate it.

I don't get the big fuss over me putting 'in a relationship' on facebook, seriously. -_-

2010-01-10T05:59:00.000-08:00

I miss those days, the bonding, the closeness, it was just so right.

Which of you haven't had a friend leave you before?

How many of you truly understand the feeling of saying 'goodbye'?

When do you actually mean it when you say 'it's just goodnight & not goodbye'?

Sometimes, it seems impossible for me to express it out, about how I honestly feel. ~~Even if I'm dying to tell.~~

We have to yearn for Him even more now. The Kingdom is near.

Don't I look tall here! :D

(Sorry Linghui I cant shuddup)

2010-01-09T10:12:00.001-08:00

Polytechnic Open Houses! TP was crazily enthusiastic! :D We were greeted with the LOUD (ttm) cheers by those 'green people'. They're so funny! I'll never forget the GOODBYE cheer w/ the extra 'Wahlau so early leave, sian' at the back. Apparently it wasn't meant to be heard but the guy accidentally said it with the loud hailer ON. HAHAHA, how funny! :)

My first Holy Communion tomorrow. :) I need to get some steps right. God has shown me the way, He answered my question. He revealed it to me. I wanna praise the Lord and thank Him for all He has done & given me is so wonderful. I feel so happy, because right now, He has assured me that this is the right path I'm taking on.

When I say I wanted to leave you, I didn't mean it at all. Never ever will I mean it.

2010-01-08T08:18:00.000-08:00

Deeper in love in His presence every single day.

What more can I ask for? *Smiles*

Some things can really make you feel so loved; even if it's just something small.

But then, it's time I get rid of my earthly desires & return to my Heavenly Father.

When you teach me to walk; I will run.

When you teach me to hear; I will listen.

When you teach me to talk; I will sing.

When you teach me to skip; I will dance.

Somehow what I truly feel seems to be unexplainable.

~~I cried so badly when you're not here with me.~~

~~I wish I could change you, but no, I can't.~~

2010-01-05T07:49:00.000-08:00

You're just trying your luck;

Testing one's patience makes you a jerk.

It's time for me to learn how I should manage my anger. Nobody can change me, only God.

Sometimes life seems to be a lil' faster paced than expected.

I have to understand that not everything happens the way I want it to.

2010-01-04T07:26:00.000-08:00

The SUPER DUPER UBER last minute class gathering of 2D '07 was AWESOMELY GOOD. Hehe we should plan for more meetups man!!! I love you girls to the maximax!

Sunday Service in the morning was rather hectic. Before that at home, my mum and I fought. Cause I was supposed to collect the cake at 9pm & we arranged to leave home at about that time, but I was still sleeping at 8. I woke up at 8.30 a.m. instead & I had to bathe v. quickly. Thank God we managed to reach church on time though we missed like half the morning prayer. Mmhmm, I sat with Huixuan during morning prayer & I tried to talk to her. Okay seriously the attempt to 'bond' with her seriously failed. I need to pray to God about this. It's really awkward. Like when I asked her to at least clap her hands during worship she merely stoned there. It's okay. (: It takes time. I believe that one day she's gonna be so enthu & her hands will be lifted up to worship God during worship songs hehe. I BELIEVE IT WILL HAPPEN.

After that it was time for Rev Kang to preach. Surprisingly there was no Holy Communion. Yeap! So... Okay I admit I didn't really pay attention to Rev Kang at some parts. Especially the front part. I think I was v. distracted by the (new) translator. :/ But I know that I cannot blame her. I must really try to get used to listening to Rev. Kang's sermon now. Like what Rev Evan had mentioned, it's a matter of time that we grow up & join the adult service.

After service, we went to celebrate Chen Shan & Li Hao's birthday. :D Hehe the cake was yummy I ate like 3 -_- There was an extra cake so I got really tempted & I ate it. Oops. Ooh but guess what! I dislike chocolate cakes. & it was chocolate cake! I like Elmoooooooooooo so cute!

The cell group & lunch was being delayed. Heard that the lorry broke down or something. Yes & the food was yummy. It tasted so good that I took more for myself. -_- It's time for me to lose weight & shed some fatty fats.

Next was slacking around! Haha the youths were 'jammin' in worship hall. V. Fun (: & I love Yimqi's voiceeeee. Je eung should really play more on the keyboard! He plays it so well! I wish I could learn some musical instruments too :(

Then my daddy mummy came to fetch me to Tanah Merah station. Yeap & I met up with Angel & Simin! I was wearing jeans and looked v. out of place. Haha thennnnnnnnnnnn Sarah's dad came to fetch us to her house.

Her house is huge! Okay I'd heard about how beautiful her house is & I finally got to see it with my own eyes! Yea it's really beautiful! 3 storeys plus a basement! When we entered we saw many many cats. Haha I'm serious. 1 cat + 4 kittens + 2 stray cats. & There was a dog which scared me a lot. But after that I was okay with the dog already. Cute Charlie! :) Parsley couldn't stop provoking Charlie! haha & Charlie barks at no one except Parsley! Sadly, Parsley's attempt to befriend Charlie failed. She almost got attacked! (& guess what Parsley's Chengmei!)

Yaaaaa then it was time for BBQ. Yummy food :) Thanks to all who came & made the class gathering a success! :D People should really stop PS-ing at the v. last minute. It annoys me. Thanks to all who brought food & contributed in the BBQ-ing. :) Sorry Angel I forgot the otahs!

At night we watched 17 again. Heh thank God it's not some gross movie or what. I like love movies :D Hehe so sweet. After almost everyone left, Angel Sarah Simin & I went back to Sarah's room. Her room's niceeee! I saw SO MANY gifts on her table. Somehow I felt a little bad cause many of my gifts are like either in this room or that room. V. disorganised :( I need a big cupboard man so I can put all my gifts into 1 cupboard. Yep!

After that we went to play Wii! They started playing first cause I was on the phone. Hehe :) After phone call I simply spammed myself with the fishball chips. It's yummy! But then there's obviously a price to pay. Now I'm having sore throat again..

We slept at 3. Ooh I played Wii Fitness & they said I'm like an 80 yr-old lady! Eh! I am not so old okay! I am like... 16 only? Hmmmmmmmm. Young & young at heart!

Okie we woke up at like 11! HAHAHA, can you believe it I was the first to wake up! YAY ME! :D Sarah's mum asked if we wanted breakfast or lunch. HAHA! :) I like the congee it's tasted so nice & it's like from some high class restaurant?

I didn't do my prayer journal for yesterday... I guess I shall start tomorrow. I went to Tecman with Angel & Simin and thank God! There were just nice 2 copies left (not sure if they had more in storeroom) & I got both. & 1 Bible Index for Sis Deborah. Yeah. I am going to pass it to her tomorrow during morning prayer. It's gonna be my first time attending it without other youths. Hmm, yeah. :/

After that I went home to bathe & went to have fun in Novena. :) Hehe love the surprise though it's very mini. Thank you dear. (I told you I really love to have surprisesssss)

To you: I still hope we're good friends. Because I still want you so badly, as a friend.

2010-01-02T06:52:00.000-08:00

2009 was an eventful year! Okay yeah I really, seriously mean it. I had O levels in 2009 okayzxzxz.

2009 was special because... I accepted Christ.

2009 was special because... I entered Go4.

2009 was special because... I got much closer with my classmates.

2009 was special because... I got baptised.

2009 was special because... I did many stupid things with friends.

2009 was special because... I mugged the most.

2009 was special because... I finally learnt the importance of many things.

2009 was special because... I knew that nothing is impossible for I have the Lord with me.

2009 was special because... Its a blessing from God.

2009 was special because... of many more things.

Now, I'll move on. Because it was an eventful year. Good & bad things happened. But its all over.

I've finally entered a new chapter of life & it's simply time for me to move on.

No matter what I will never look back. Because this is definitely not what God wants for me.

2010 I'm gonna be ready for you! :)

Alrighty, I really have to stick to my new year resolutions now.

I ~~must~~ will do it.

2010-01-01T07:09:00.000-08:00

I just woke up! (: (It was 10:50p.m.) & I'm still feeling a bit lethargic. Maybe cause I slept too much..? Haha I slept at 11am & woke up at 4pm & slept at 6pm & woke up at abt 11pm! WOAH. I wonder how I'm going to sleep laterrrrrr. Now I really feel like a nocturnal animal. :( I had better adjust my sleeping time back to normal cause this is really bad. I'll always feel tired when I attend church.

So yesterday I spent my new year eve at Tecman! So at first I was about to meet Yizhuang & Yisheng... Then Bennett also going. So I met him at TPY first, then we went Bugis first. But Yizhuang & Yisheng were late, so we went to walk around first. I spent abt $4 on 3 meat sticks! Haha but its nice! EXTRA CHILLI YUMMMMMMY :)

Then the Tang Brothers came so we went to look for them at MRT Station & they were shocked to see Bennett I think. Haha, then we walked to Bras Basah :D TECMAN!!!

Found 'Christians Going To Hell' (a good book according to Sis Deborah) then we stayed there for quite long.. I went to continue reading the Healing Grace book :D & I can't believe it! Yizhuang agreed to buy the book for me as Christmas present!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) THANK GOD! Thank you Yizhuang :)

Thank God for the book. For now, I'll have to focus on gaining more knowledge on the Bible & then I'll start to read all the Christian books I have on hand. I believe God will grant me the determination to finish reading them all :) (Although Im someone who can never finish reading a book)

Yeah! Then we went to church after that. B & Ys took bus 80 while Yz & Me took MRT then bus 28. & I finally got to see JOO YE & JE EUNG! :D God knows how happy and eggcited I was. Too long never see them already, especially Joo ye! Haha as usual she was feeling tired. :)

Then we went to opposite to eat.. AS USUAL! All youths sat on this small round table & it was fun chatting with each other. :) Heehee. Laughed a lot too! :D Then Joo ye couldn't finish her Hokkien Mee so I ate a bit for her. Wahhhhh, I was so full can, cause I drank 2 cups of MILO as well. My belt couldn't quite take the huge bulge from my tummyyyyyyy.

Went back to church after dinner & it was back to sermon. I went to join Joo ye in Rev. Kang's office to check for MOE announcements. Sadly, we couldnt find anything thats related to the release of Os results.

After prayer/sermon, it was break time. Talked to Sis Deborah etc.. Then it was sermon time again! (11:30pm) I didnt choose to sit with mummy I sat with youths instead. Then it was only (11:55pm) & the screen showed the countdown thing. HAHA! Then everyone started to POP POP POP the POPPERS! & I was being stupid can. I pointed into the air but my hand was at the base of the popper. So I hurt my hand & injured myself! But guess what.. IT WAS FALSE ALARM ONLY! Its still not 2010 yet lo!

Then when it was officially 2010, everyones kind of excited (I think) except for me. HAHA it didnt really register in my brain that we've already entered a new year. -_-

Yeah! Then prayed & prayed & prayed. & we were told that we could stayover.. So!!! Je Eung/Xinyi/Jiayi/Yizhuang/Yisheng/Bennett (last min)/Zhikai/Jooye (not with us though)/Me stay overnight. Okay lah actually Je Eung/Jooye left at like 4am? Yeah, quite last minute. Sad..:( Sang worship songs in FAITH(?) room. Went on to pray in worship hall for a while. Apparently we didnt sleep the whole night lah, except Yizhuang & Jiayi. They knocked out at about 4am?

Ya then when its 6am, we decided to wake them up.. But they refused. Haha cause the girls couldnt sleep in same room but thats the only room that had air con. So we wanted to go for breakfast in MACS but too bad, everyone decided to succumb to temptation of sleeping. So we (girls) sleping in Faith room & the boys slept in LOVE room. But Xy couldnt sleep. So I slept alone. But its rather stupid. At like 7am my stomach hurt so much. So I woke up then blah blah. Xy tried to drag the guys up but to no avail.

Okay story goes on...

Then we decided to eat the butter cakes in church for breakfast. Then Auntie Angie & this lady talked with us... then slowly.. Bennett slept. Then Zhikai slept. Then Yisheng put his head down. Then I slept also. Yizhuang's the sole survivor! (Eh obviously. He slept the longest can)

Felt so bad lah, cause its like so rude when Aunt Angie was talking. But I really couldnt take it anymore. :( I wanted to just put my head down. Haha but I fell into some deep sleep.

Yeah then we went home afterwards. So this was how I spent my first day of a NEW YEAR. Sleeping. But its good lah. Can get rid of eye bags!

So thats all for now! :) HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

2009-12-29T02:06:00.000-08:00

I REALLY MISS ST. NICKS NOW. :(

I Miss Everyone In School Now.

2009-12-29T01:06:00.000-08:00

Mmm... The smell of curry wafting through the air.. Whee, I'm getting a little hungry here.

Okok so random! I think I'm updating my blog almost everyday now? Its a good thing. :) But I'd better get down to start writing in a journal soon. (For church) Because Sis Deborah said that we should start first & set a good example. Okay I should really stop procrastinating! Hurry do all the things I need to do before results are out. Come to think of it, I don't have much time left before the release of Os results.

Morning prayer as usual. Oh oh I cut my fringeeeeeeee! HAHA, I look like some nerd. Really this time round I think I look like a nerd too. But never mind, I can't do anything about it anyway. -_- It's really chopped off. HAHA sounds weird.

Then Sis Deborah asked Yisheng & I to go get a Bible... I think its for Bennett's mum or smth? Yeap, so both of us went. Then I saw this book: Healing Grace for the Hurting people. I read 1 chapter and it's really NICE. I am serious. I want this book! But it's a little expensive. :( Maybe next time I'll go there & continue to read for free. I'm not free-loader kay. HAHA.

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Imma happy girl. I gave Ps Evan a hug! Haha but so weird lah just now.

2009-12-28T01:59:00.000-08:00

I just finished the children's Bible! Okay after this I'm moving on to reading the Teenager's Bible. Then... NIV Bible. Haha, Sis Deborah expects us to finish the whole of NIV Bible by end of 2010.

So... Pastor Evan has left. Okay I was really very upset. When he talked to us during mentoring & during prayer, many flashbacks went on at the back of my head. I recalled the way he introduced himself when I first entered Sunday School... how he was always so cheerful & happy whenever he began every Sunday School class. (Even though we were really unresponsive most of the time in the past)

But we all believe it's God's will for him to leave. Because he has his dreams to fulfil & everyone will not want to be cursed for defying God's will. (:

THANK YOU - RAY BOLTZ

I dreamed I went to heaven
And you were there with me;
We walked upon the streets of gold
Beside the crystal sea.
We heard the angels singing
Then someone called your name.
We turned and saw a young man running
And he was smiling as he came.

And he said, "Friend you may not know me now."
And then he said, "But wait,
You used to teach my Sunday School
When I was only eight.
And every week you would say a prayer
Before the class would start.
And one day when you said that prayer,
I asked Jesus in my heart."

Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am so glad you gave.

Then another man stood before you
And said, "Remember the time
A missionary came to your church
And his pictures made you cry.
You didn't have much money,
But you gave it anyway.
Jesus took the gift you gave
And that's why I'm here today."

Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am so glad you gave.

One by one they came
Far as the eye could see.
Each life somehow touched
By your generosity.
Little things that you had done,
Sacrifices made,
Unnoticed on the earth
In heaven, now proclaimed.

And I know up in heaven
You're not supposed to cry
But I am almost sure
There were tears in your eyes.
As Jesus took your hand
And you stood before the Lord.
He said, "My child, look around you.
Great is your reward."

Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am so glad you gave.

Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am so glad you gave.

-

My life changed ever since I entered Go4 & Sunday School.
I Love God! I Love Go4YM! I Love Pastor Evan!

2009-12-26T07:48:00.000-08:00

Yayeeee, I uploaded many new songs into my iTunes! :) Though it can never be compared to Yizhuang's 1000+ songs. (-.-)

Okay I really want my shuffle now Now NOW. I CANNOT STAND IT I WANT IT NOWWWWWWWWW.

Hoottts, off to ___________! :) Tmr Ps Evan is leaving. Im so sad. :(

Grrrr. Im getting annoyed now anyway. I hate it when people lie to me.

2009-12-25T01:34:00.000-08:00

Somehow I'm really thankful to God for I know He has never left me despite all the shits I'm going through now. As I'm typing this I hope emotional feelings have not been triggered yet.

The righteous one will STAND & the wicked one will FALL.

Many things have been going on & HUILI has been REAL BUSY! Heehee but I still can afford to take some time to blog about everything that has been going on. Hmm as usual, have been going to church for morning prayers and stuff. Ytd I was supposed to meet Cheryl & Small Yi after morning prayer in church. But when I called Cheryl at 11.15am I realised she was still asleep. -_- No, in fact, she just woke up when I called her. We were supposed to meet @ 12 p.m. Haha so... I slacked in church a bit. Then Sis Deborah came to talk to us...

Well many many things. Her words are always so encouraging & inspiring. I feel motivated everytime I hear her words. Always have that strong urge to do something everytime she talks to us. (Us = Me & Yizhuang & perhaps Bennett) But those 'motivations' are always like temporary. It's something like 三分钟热度. I must pray to God for Him to change me. I need to change this otherwise I'll never succeed in anything I do. Always have the tendency to give up or something. & Right now Im already comtemplating on giving something up. Dont get me wrong, its not r/s stuff or anything.

Anyway, I forgot to mention that we did gift of prophecy practice (??) during morning prayer. I was called to sit in the middle & so on. Well I must say, I learned some truth from Sis & Bros. They may not be absolutely spot on what Holy Spirit has revealed but I'll pray to God for Him to show me which is the right thing to follow.

So after listening to Sis Deborah's 'talk', Sis Theresa asked us to go have porridge for lunch. Bennett didnt go so left me & Yizhuang. Then Yizhuang ate 2 bowls of porridge! Lol surprisingly I was full after 1 bowl already. Then Rev Kang shared with us about his feelings & thoughts & some bits from the past. Quite funny I must say. & As usual, I learned a lot from his words. He is right. So what if you topped the class? If you do not have God's Holy Word in your heart & mind & soul you'll never succeed. It's really true. This is a perspective of Christians. & Then after eating, I decided not to meet Cheryl & Siaoyi since they wanted to watch AVATAR. Haha, I wasn't interested. So I decided to go with Sis Deborah, Sis Theresa & Yizhuang to visit 2 families. First family was Christians. Second was non-Christians. The first family's home was like... A playground? Haha, Im serious! They have like 4 kids & 3/4 of their HUGE living room was occupied with TOYS & TOYS AND... MORE TOYS. Second family's home was neater and I read my Bible there. Haha, i hope I'd see the 2 families in church soon. :D I'll pray to God for the cell grp plan to be able to go on & for Weiming (?) to join our youth group. :) MUST REACH SIS DEBORAH'S TARGET FOR YOUTHS IN 2010! :)

At night, we went over to Kelvin's house for Christmas gathering. Then I was very scared of SMILEY (?) at first. Cause he couldnt stop barking!!! So I kept grabbing Yizhuang's arm/wrist/jacket whenever the dog was near me. Lol, but in the end I wasnt scared of the dog anymore :D Cause not scary one. Haha then BUFFET started!!! I ate & ate & ate & ate. Like nobody's business. I think I'm different from others. When people feel sad they usually have no appetite. But I think I'm different. I eat a lot to hide my emotions. Happy or Sad its the same.

Yeah then after that the youths (Jiayi Xinyi Yisheng Yizhuang Me) went down to playground. Talk talk talk. Then went home after that. Was quite tired already...Thank God I reached home safely :)

Today's Christmas! :) Happy birthday Christ Jesus! :) I remember someone's birthday is on this day as well, but I can't remember whose it is! So... Happy birthday to whoever you are! :) You are blessed to be born on this day :D Ookie, so, I just came back from family party @ cousin Grace's house. I LOVE HER CD COLLECTIONS. Its awesome. I wish I owned them.

I borrowed 3 books from her too :) & She gave me a new book for Christmas. :D Yay I'm so happy! :)

I borrowed:

When Godly People Do Ungodly Things (I read a bit. Its nice!),
The Five Love Languages of Teenagers (I think its for adults. But nvm!),
I Kissed Dating Goodbye (She forced me to read it, but I think I shld read it too)

& She gave me:

Lies Young Women believe. (I can't wait. Think I'm gonna read this book next)

Ok bye!

2009-12-23T07:52:00.001-08:00

I am really praying to God that He will change you. I believe He will. :) I have faith in Him. :) & you.

2009-12-22T05:23:00.001-08:00

History is repeating itself.

Same things are happening again. I'm yearning for some concern. You leave me feeling perplexed. Everyday. I don't want history to repeat itself. I don't want that same kind of disastrous shit feelings. Every single night. I don't like the fact that I'm madly waiting for you.

I want to have 1 direction only. Just one direction. It shall be the road which God leads me to.

I will burst into tears anytime. But no matter when it is going to be, it shall be the time when I'm alone. Just God & me, alone.

-

I have UGLY scratches on my right leg now. Seriously ugly! I almost tumbled down the escalator that was moving upwards. Thanks to B Hong. Both of us got cuts on our hand/leg.

(No, in fact both of us almost tumbled down.)

Its seriously ugly!!!!!!!!! Mine's so much worse than his. I can't stand it. Although they're merely superficial wounds they hurt a lot okay. But thank God, we are still alive. Thank God for the angel behind us who helped us up. Seriously thank God he was not just right behind me. Because he would have fallen too & the three of us would just roll down. It's City Hall MRT's escalator okay!! The super high one. PAIN LA.

I felt like a goondu (Idk the spelling) when I was trying to prevent the blood from oozing out. I should've prayed for more formation of thrombokinase. (? or is it fibrinogen) Blood clot blood clot. Haha stupid man. I hope there won't be scars...

Thank God for Yizhuang & Yisheng. Very nice of them, especially Yizhuang to apply cream onto my leg for me :) & He helped me to buy dinner when we went over to their house... Thanks Yisheng for helping me cook my maggie mee. Thanks Bennett for helping me to finish up the hor fan. So I won't waste the food which they gave me. :) Thank you for the hor fan! :) Thank you Yizhuang & Yisheng for walking us to the LRT station. :) Thanks Yizhuang for accompanying us to Puggol station. Yisheng couldn't bring us cause he forgot his card. :(

So the trip back home was rather good.. At least my mum didn't scold me. I was limping btw. Haha. I felt LAME.

After reading Yizhuang's blog, I've come to realise how much I've been going out with the 3 of them. Haha Bexton & Timothy & Bennett. Lol everyday seems to be interesting with them around. :) Hope more youths will go for morning prayer.

Feel bad for going church late today... Woke up late! Must go repent.

-

I won't cry. Even if I do, it'd be behind the doors. :)

2009-12-20T20:16:00.000-08:00

Gonna go over to Tang Brothers' house later :) Can't wait.

Before that, Im gonna go out with my dearest Cheryl! Haha, I wanna go shopping. I wanna shop for new clothes :D Im so sick of my wardrobe, it's malfunctioned.

SHOPPINGGGGGGGGGG. (Im not gonna love it though) I'm serious.

I dont wanna be a shopping addict again. Its a sin. :/

Oh ooh I'm finally baptised! :) Thank you Shuxiang for coming over ytd. :) If I knew you'd be so tired I wouldnt made you go through all that trouble! So sorry girl.

20 December 2009 is such a meaningful day. I am going to remember it for the rest of my life.

2009-12-18T08:09:00.000-08:00

12:09 a.m. now and I just ate! :O So fattening.

Hey thanks to those who tagged! :) I really thought this blog was dead already. It's rotting and it stinks. Haha, tag more people!

Ooh anyway, went out today with Bennett & Yizhuang. I should say it's quite alright but I was feeling awful. Because I had tummyache!!! The trip down to Tecman was really cool, I saw many Christian books and I realised I've 1-2 myself too! :) Gonna read them again, and this time round it's a whole new feeling when I read them. Cause I've become a believer now. :D

The Christian bookstore's really cool, and if you haven't been to that place, go there soon! :) They are having some promotion now & you can get almost ANYTHING related to Christianity there! :D They even have anointing oil etc. :)

After Tecman, we went back to church and Bennett & I started arguing about which bus stop to board the bus. So.... I suggested taking train to Paya Lebar then from there, we take bus. Ooh smartie. Hehe. When we reached there, I stupidly believed that the bus stop was on my right since the arrow pointed towards the right side. But I was wrong. It was actually up ahead from where we were. Sorry Yz! Made you believe me once again when I was actually wrong. :( Haha.

We were not really late for church. ( I think ) Yeap! But then in the end we didn't stay to sleep in church... Because it's in industrial area and we haven't gotten permission from SE Building Managment. So I called my mum & I came home. :)

And I ate my supper! Woah super full can. So much for grumbling in church that I was very hungry. Haha. During discipleship, some man sort of made a scene. & My godma told me he's demon-possessed. Hmm not sure if she was right. But he just kept pulling those people who were lying down up. And he just kept shouting & shouting when Rev Kang anointed people. Ooh but he fainted when he touched Rev Kang's hand.

Oh yeah my trhoat hurts. I don't feel like typing! So byeeeeee :D

2009-12-17T06:41:00.000-08:00

3 More Days.

I cannot wait!!!! :)

Ok, it's time for me to move on. I know it.

2009-12-11T07:40:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a crazy day. There was a WW3 going on at home and things were so terrible. Honestly I was so frightened and was in a state of shock for almost the whole day. From morning when I woke up till night before I slept. (I slept at about 9pm can you believe it?!?!)

Oh thank God things have been solved and finally settled. Well it's kind of sad to have my grandma insulting me like that. But I don't have a choice, do I? She's my grandma. Someone who has more authority than me. Lol. If she thinks that the whole world's against her, I've nothing more to say. And everything was in a mess and this crap goes on...

Sentosa. Haha, it's kind of boring but I did not regret going to out today with church friends. (: Love them all! Though my back was seriously aching the whole day. I think it's due to the fact that I was kind of sick today. Yeap and I gotta start saving up for dance & phone bill!

Okayzzzzz no one's online. So boring.

Calendar!

2009-12-08T08:17:00.000-08:00

9 December 2009 - [Church] Morning Prayer & Youth discussions etc

10 December 2009 - [Church] Not confirmed

11 December 2009 - [Sentosa] Heehee & [Church] Discipleship

12 December 2009 - [Church] Baptism Class & PS

13 December 2009 - [Church] Sunday Service & Cell (??)

19 December 2009 - [Church] Baptism Class

20 December 2009 - [Church] BAPTISM (:

I can't wait. I really cannot wait for this day to come. Lord, thank You.

I thank You so much! For everything in my life, I wanna praise You and thank You for it.

Because everything in my life is a gift from YOU to me.

Without YOU, I am nothing.

2009-12-06T09:01:00.000-08:00

John 6:35

'Then Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty. But as I told you, you have seen me and still you do not believe.'"

2009-12-04T05:41:00.000-08:00

Shijie left for Bangkok yesterday/the day before.

Cheryl, Linghui, Kelly, Elissa leaving for Korea at 9 p.m.

Siaoyi leaving for Korea at 1 a.m.

Tingyuan leaving for Bangkok at 7 a.m.

Sherlyn leaving for Australia at 3 p.m.

Pearlyn leaving for China soon.

Angel going M'sia on 10th and going Korea on 22nd.

Jooye & Je Eung & Family leaving for Korea after Zoe Ministry.

Michelle in Hongkong now.

All church people coming back tmrw :D

Oh my oh my, when is it going to be my turn? o.0

But thank God for these people in my life.

Therefore may Lord bless them throughout the whole trip and let it be a fun-filled one. (:

Tomorrow is ZK's birthday.

Sunday is QJ's birthday.

Monday is Ah Ma's birthday.

Lord, I finally learnt a lesson. I've finally understood how precious a life is.

And how much misery that can be caused when a life's gone...

May you, whatever your name might've been, rest in peace..

2009-12-02T08:30:00.000-08:00

When God does not give you something which you want, He has a better plan for you.

Today's thorn may be tomorrow's flower.

You can be sure that He will always give you what you need at the appropriate time.

No one will understand your needs better than your Father.

Matthew 7: 7-12

Ask, Seek, Knock

2009-12-02T01:50:00.000-08:00

Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.

I really wish to get over it.

2009-12-01T03:13:00.000-08:00

15

No more.

You know, I really wish that things could be changed. I do not have a choice. My heart still aches whenever I think of what's going to happen, but I have no more tears to shed already. No more tearing silently anymore as well. I wish I could accept the fact that you're gone, forever.

I used to think..

2009-11-30T07:35:00.000-08:00

I used to think that... only Singapore exists on earth.

I used to think that... Nobody is perfect.

I used to think that... I was very much unloved.

I used to think that... I'd never fall in love.

I used to think that... I was going to be overweight by the time I reach Primary 4

I used to think that... There is no such thing as natural disasters.

I used to think that... Being a free thinker is good, I can believe in any god.

I used to think that... Durian is yummy.

I used to think that... I'd grow up to be an actress.

I used to think that... I'd be a scholar.

I used to think that... I need anger management workshop.

I used to think that... The earth is square.

I used to think that... I'd sink the moment I go into the pool.

I used to think that... Dinosaurs still exist.

I used to think that... My parents' love for us comes from my grandparents.

I used to think that... I'm better off being an only child.

I used to think that... I can remain the tallest in primary 3 class forever.

I used to think that... Christians and Catholics have got no difference.

I used to think that... Sharks' fins come by easily.

I used to think that... We have no lack of resources.

I used to think that... I am just the one who is accidentally 'popped out' one according to parents.

I used to think that... Pink is cute.

I used to think that... I'd never wear a dress in my whole life.

I used to think that... Lizards are cute.

I used to think that... I'd have another baby brother to play with.

I used to think that... No friends will like me if I'm truthful about everything I do.

I used to think that.. God is merely a stranger in my life.

And the ~~embarrassing~~ list goes on...

No doubt, I have grown up over the years.. Physically, mentally, spiritually..

I have learnt more in life.. And I'm grateful to those who have left an impact in my life...

God,

My grandmothers,

My parents,

My sisters,

My aunt,

My cousins,

My godparents,

My godsister,

My friends in primary school,

My friends in secondary school,

Ps Evan,

Go4 YM,

Church aunties & Sis Deborah.

Thank you all for the teaching... I wouldn't have grown up if you were not there in my life..

Thank you everyone who has left a great impact in my life. I love you all. (:

Praise the Lord for everything is part of His plans for me.

Now that I've mentioned, I finally understand why my birth isn't an accidental one for my parents.

Mighty Lord has planned everything for us even before we were born.

He is that great. :)

2 Corinthians 9:15
"Thanks be to God for His indescribable gift!"

2009-11-29T20:53:00.000-08:00

Is there nothing more to do?
Is there nothing more to say?
I am just, after all, another mere soul,
lost in this world, lost far away.

You could have brought me back.
You were my only confidant.
For you I shared what I thought,
for you I shared all that was in me.

Never once did I open up like I did to you,
my thoughts and emotions,
never once did any other know of,
You were my friend, my only best friend.

But now I could only smile,
I guess it's all just from self-pity.
After all, who wouldn't feel stupid,
angry and guilty, after opening up

To a person who could merely drift away,
to a person you thought you knew,
to a person you thought would always be.
to a person you thought would stay.

I was ready to give more to you,
to be the best friend I could ever be.
But see, you left, or maybe I did.
Things weren't just right anymore.

I guess that's life.
Nothing stays, nothing remains,
And all I know now is that this is life,
And I hate it for being so.

Yet another friend is lost;

I still have GOD.

The Lord gives me strength and courage to move on

2009-11-29T11:43:00.000-08:00

I am nothing without Lord.

Every single thing... Every day is a blessing He has showered upon me.

I wanna PRAISE THE LORD for everything.

I have learnt to take things in stride.

I know that God will have better plans for me.

No matter how many times I have failed.

I will stay strong because I am in the Lord's army and this is my honour.

I read a lot on something.. And I've grown even more spiritually.

I praise the Lord for everything He has given me.

-

I've always liked this story very much,

I used to have the poster being hung on the wall beside my bed. :D

FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach
with the Lord.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.

For each scene,
he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand.
One belonged to him, and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
he looked back at the footprints in the sand.

He noticed
that many times along the path of his life,
there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened
at the very lowest
and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him
and he questioned the Lord about it.

"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during
the most troublesome times in my life,
there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when I needed you the most
you would leave me."

The Lord replied,
"My precious, precious child,
I love you and would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then I carried you."

~Author Unknown~

I love Go4 Youth!

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Acts 2: 42 - 47

The fellowship of the believers..

Go4 YM 2009 :)

The Mission

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THE MISSION There's a call going out across the land in every nationThe call to those who swear allegiance to the cross of ChristA call to true humility to live our lives responsiblyTo deepen our devotion to the Christ at any priceLet us then be sober moving only in the spiritAs aliens and strangers in a hostile foreign landThe message we're proclaiming is repentence and forgivenessThe offer of salvation to the dying race of manTo love the Lord our God is the heartbeat of our missionThe spring of which our service overflows~ Across the street or around the worldThe mission's still the same ~PROCLAIM AND LIVE THE TRUTH IN JESUS' NAME~ As a candle is consumed by the passion of the flameSpilling light unsparingly throughout a darkened room Let us burn to know Him deeper Then our service burning bright will rasdiate His passionsAnd blaze with burning Holy LightTo love the Lord our GodIs the heartbeat of our mission The spring of which our service overflowsAcross the street or around the worldThe mission's still the sameProclaim and live the truth in Jesus' Name - It is Lord.. Who has given me the LOVE and filled my heart with love & courage to forgive.. In fact, I never knew I would forgive him.. Really never did.. I admit, what has happened had a very big impact on me.. But my dear Lord, I thank You so much. Praise the Lord for His goodness comforts all souls. We are growing spiritually in His presence..

Matthew 4:4 "Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the
mouth of God"

It is by God's grace that I've forgiven him... And now, he has learnt from his mistake.. He has grown even more spiritually and let Lord lead the direction once again.. Holy Spirit is guiding him.. FORGIVEMatthew 18: 21 - 35
Being hungry for spiritual food... Walking in the way of God...The devotion is important too.. Is God the center of our lives? The loving God touches the hearts of many... For the King of all kings is merciful. Matthew 5:1-10

Taking another 20 minutes to warm up...

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Okay I just woke up from my evening nap. I need like another 20 more minutes to warm up...

Youth Service, what to say. Cried a lot, our hearts were touched. Perhaps most of us there could feel the short moment of intimacy with God because if we had not felt it we would not cry. Okay stupid mengmeng laughed at the way I cried. LOL. But heck, cause no one looks good when they cry. It was just the time when everyone finally opened their hearts and poured out the feelings that were kept within them for too long.

It was pretty all right and it went well. Cried even more when I heard/sang the song STILL. Haha, because something happened when I first heard that song. Well it's all God's will that everything's happening. Everything happens for a reason. I don't know how it became like this too. I wish I could control it and keep it away from me. Because it's too distracting and I am losing respect for myself. If it's truly God's will I'd go for it. But the time will never be right, for now.

Anyway after YS it was dinner. (ooooh, tang yi sheng = TYS = ten year series = my best companion till 13th NOV) Yeah and I liked the egg! Wah so yummy. Thinking of it now, hmmmm... Oh yeah I just realised I didn't eat dinner because I was soooo tired that I fell asleep on the sofa. But I don't feel hungry now! Surprisingly.

Okay legs are really gonna breakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk so much for running around chasing after 3 peeps today. I should've warmed up during lunch or something if I knew I was gonna be so crazy after lunch to chase 3 ppl.

How to enjoy shopping tmrwwwwwwwwwwww yo!

Okay byebye! Dead blog.

HMMMM..

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Should I get

Doraemon or Little Miss Fun or Cookie Monster or Superman tee?

YAY BROKE MY NEED FOR SPEED RECORDDDDDDDD!

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:D:D I broke the record with the help of Yizhuang's absence, whoooooo! HAHA kidding.

Okay this new blog has just been created but I haven't really invited anyone to visit. OBVIOUSLY. Oooh okay I'm really happy to quit the stupid job at ______. Hahaha really no offence, but their 'great' management system sucks so much. And the people there upset me.

Hohoho but really thank GOD! I quit it. Otherwise I wouldn't have had enjoyed myself so damn much for the past 2 days with my church mates. :) Thanks guys for the fun moments! MORE CHURCH OUTING PLEASEEEEEEE. Praise the almighty Lord! :)

But I have a conclusion: Never ever drink Wheat grass juice in front of them! (Although its yummyyyyyyyyyy)

Ok tomorrow got youth service, and baptism class. I CAN'T WAIT! haha okay, yeah really can't wait. BUTBUTBUT I'm really scared that I'll lose my way! Since the place is quite difficult to locate (for me!)

Sore throat again! ): I think I'll need more Honey lemon or wheat grass! & PRAY MORE.

It's very fun, I've got my schedule all packed packed packed. It's lined up with many exciting events! Okay at least I've got many things up all the way till next week. ;)

Really thank God I quit the jobbbbbbbbbbbbbbb. Otherwise I'd have missed all the fun. I had great fun today & yesterday! :) It's a pity I didn't go for the SUSHI TEI outing. :(

Hooohoo, I think I'll have to look for a job soon, otherwise I'd start rotting at home sooner or later. But Im just wondering if theres any retail sales job which doesnt require you to work on weekends. Because they're my lovely weekends and I'll need to go for baptism class & church on Sunday! &&&&&&& I need to spend quality time with family!

So yeah. It's either that or I'll leave the job thing till next year or so. I don't want my work day to clash with Christmas day & Christmas eve/baptism day/church service/baptism class/wkends.

Ooh but seriously... got such job that has so many off days meh?

Done posting, bye!

Church Outing

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Whooo, church outing was fun! Okay fine, the dinner was fun. Hahahah I didn't go for the walk due to heat rash. And also cause I woke up at 12pm! Which is the time we're supposed to meet.

:S

Ooh, surprisingly I didn't eat a lot during dinner. (Really not my usual appetite okay!) Hahaha, by right I should be able to eat like 1-2 more pizzas. But I was already on the verge of barfing when I ate my first and last pizza!

Oh rightttttt now Angel and I are talking bout shopping in Haji lane! I can't waittttttt omg! :) window shopping can be fun too if you're shopping at an amazing place :D even if it means that you won't be able to own the clothes and accessories!

HAHA, I managed to resist the temptation to buy f21 wallet. Whooo, praise the Lord! Thank God.

:) Church outing was very funnnnn and really thanks to Ps Evan for the treat! :D

Well although I very much do not wish for him to leave, I know that opening a new church will be part of God's great plans for him. :D Wish him all the best!

3:50 a.m.

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OMGGGGG, its so late now and I'm still seated here. I know I should be sleeping right now!

Tomorrow youth outing.. decided not to go for the treetop walk thing since I'm really scared of the heatrash ): But told Jiayi that I'll be going for dinner already. hahah hope they choose macs! then i can eat my fave mcwings :D but gonna look sooo unglam, but who cares. :)

May God bless that the outing will be fun & the weather will be great! :)

Okay I think I am going to sleep already I am soooo tired. :( Yawwwwwn!